EMERSON, LAKE, PALMER, AND CULAR

Ayo nikmati hidup!

2011-11-28T15:31:00.005+07:00

Gila ya, cepet banget bumi berevolusi.

Gue barusan chatting sama temen dekat gue dari SMP dan kami ngomongin tentang kuliah kerja nyata a.k.a kerja praktek. Gila ya, nggak kerasa banget yang tadinya kami masih orok tiba-tiba sekarang udah tante-tante workaholic! *nggak juga sih lebay aja. Besok-besok pasti gue bakalan mendapati kami ngobrol tentang kerjaan kami di kantor, lusa bakalan tentang suami dan anak kami, minggu depan tentang kesuksesan kami, bulan depan tentang cucu kami.

OMG, cepet banget bumi berevolusi!

Jujur, gue pengen banget suatu hari ngerasain kaya gini lagi; cepet banget bumi berevolusi. Tapi sekarang, mmm, siapa sih yang nggak pengen ngerasain masa muda lagi? Nggak ada hubungannya sama sifat im/mature seseorang, tapi siapa sih yang mau ngerasain pendakian tingkat stress yang lebih tinggi?

Waktu lo masih kecil pasti lo pengen banget cepet-cepet jadi dewasa. Pasti menyenangkan bisa nonton konser sampe larut malem, bisa berkelana kemana aja, nggak diatur sama ortu lagi, dan nyobain hal-hal yang cuma orang dewasa bisa lakuin. Tapi, saat ini, diumur kesekian belas dimana tahun depan gue udah nginjek kepala dua dan udah bisa disebut sebagai dewasa awal, gue ngerasa, semakin dewasa kita beban kita semakin banyak a.k.a nggak lebih menyenangkan dari masa muda gue.

Gue nggak ngomongin tingkat kegampang/susahan stress seseorang tapi absolut banget statement gue diatas.

Coba ntar pas nikah, waktu kecil bayangan kita "enak ya nikah, bisa beli rumah sendiri, bisa punya anjing dan ternak hewan dirumah, bisa ngedekor rumah kaya di tipi-tipi, markirin mobil dari yang rongsok ampe yang mengkilap".

Tapi faktanya, setelah gue dibukakan mata melihat pernikahan disekeliling gue, itu semua cuma hal yang kecil. Headlinenya adalah gimana lo bisa mengharmoniskan kehidupan lo dengan pasangan lo, gimana bisa ngerawat anak dengan baik + sukses dikarir + akur sama suami + sosialisasi lancar.

Gila, ngurusin diri sendiri aja udah rempong rumpies gimana ngurusin anak orang? Apalagi ngurusin orok?!?!

Oke lah, pernikahan sounds cheesy. Contoh lain: Karir. Yang dulunya kita mikir kalo kerja enak dapet duit, kemana-mana bisa beli apa yang kita mau tanpa batasan. Dan kita sekolah tinggi-tinggi buat apa kalo ga buat cari kerja, dapet duit, naik pangkat, sukses, tajir. Tapi ternyata problem dibalik itu nggak kalah dahsyat dibandingkan khayalan tingkat tinggi kita waktu kecil; nggak akur sama teman kantor, pangkat nggak naik-naik (alhasil gaji juga stuck), harus ngebiayain keluarga lo which is lo nggak bisa menikmati netto gaji lo sendiri.

Jadi intinya semakin lo dewasa, semakin lo ngurusin banyak orang, masalah mereka, dan tetek bengeknya. Balik lagi, ngurusin diri sendiri aja belom bisa, gimana ngurusin orang?

Nah, tapi justru itu, sampe kapan lo nggak khatam ngurus diri sendiri dan nggak berani beralih ngurusin orang? Semua itu proses yang abstrak, nggak kerasa bumi berevolusi cepet banget tapi ternyata dibalik itu kita punya pelajaran yang ternyata berguna buat kedepan.

Overthink emang nggak perlu-perlu amat, tapi apa salahnya menerawang masa depan kita secara global? *meskipun ujung-ujungnya apa kata si bos besar. Inilah siklus hidup yang emang darisononya wajib terlaksana mau nggak mau ikhlas nggak ikhlas. Terus, kate lapo?!
Jadi daripada parno sendiri menunggu eksekusi keabsolutan siklus hidup, mendingan nikmatin hidup lo selagi lo bisa hidup menikmati hidup lo. Seenggaknya kita bisa bersyukur sama apa yang kita punya sekarang, daripada mikir jauh tapi menyesal di kemudian hari, ya nggak?

Holiday is coming!

2011-07-09T22:09:00.002+07:00

Everything on 4th semester are done. Now it's July, and holiday is coming! Not too excited because everyday's a holiday for me lol. But family and friends in hometown are waiting!

Do you have any idea for the holiday planning?

It's July 2011, I'm unfortunately officially 19, and I really want to be forever young!
How to be forever young?

Stay positive and keep producing!

The next year

2011-06-20T23:16:00.003+07:00

I don't know how to greet, but, you know it's been a year (and 4 days) since my last post in here! I'm not saying this blog is decrepit and you can visit me on blabla.tumblr.com (lol everyone did that)

Well what happened in 1 year?

Boringly, a monotonic shits happened of course. But I experienced very very much things!

-I'm on second year at university and now I'm facing my final exams!
-Next semester I will be a Telecommunication and Multimedia student.
-Journalism things in University's Press and Media Information were awesome. I couldn't believe it we made a magazine again, met a lot of number one people, and did a lot of things in university events.
-Relationship so far so good, and so are friends.
-I've got a new nephew :) His name is Aldhen.
-And everyday I feel so excited to learn more about Sound and Audio Engineering!
-Surabaya bluesicians are far better in each day, with every tuesday blues night jammin.
-My family, old friends, hometown, I've been missing them. Can't wait for the long holiday.
-Can't wait for the ton of plans of next long holiday :)

Conclusion: Being a student of Electrical Engineering is real freakin hard! Well who isnt? But as you go straight facing it with your positive staying, you will feel no hard at all.

And me, I still learn all the way how to keep my positive staying grows bigger everyday. And it's truly harder than anything, how can you control your mind.

A rare post, finding myself write about the daily. But I really want to post this. I love writing and I will post very much words later.

xx

hi, long time no blurt people! its been over than 2 months since the last post and this is the conclusion:

2010-06-16T11:08:00.004+07:00

REALITY IS ONLY A NIGHTMARE AWAY

-dikutip dari film Premonition (2007).

Nerves and Veins.

2010-04-05T22:47:00.006+07:00

When I really IN NEED of you to cheer me up, would you prioritize anyone else?

And if you READ the statement above this, would you still prioritize anyone else?

Would you STILL think that i'm okay without your cheering?
Would you STILL 'not responding'?
Would you STILL conclude that me and everything are fine without telling you first?
Would you STILL UNREALIZED?

Nerves and Veins. Wish I, you, anyone, or... GOD could make it, to be a REALITY, beneath your skin. Equaling a CHANGE.

So you know what you have to do.
So you know what you have to do.
~~So you know what you have to do.~~
So you DO what you have to do!

~~When~~ I really IN NEED of you to cheer me up, (but) ~~would~~ you prioritize anyone else?.

And if you READ the statement above this, would you still prioritize anyone else?

Manusiawi

2010-01-21T11:02:00.002+07:00

Masalah satu datang dan belum terselesaikan, lalu munculah masalah baru yang datangnya berbondong-bondong dan harus diselesaikan pula, kalau tidak diselesaikan maka kejadian ini akan berangsur-angsur dan tidak akan pernah ada kata "penyelesaian" maupun "selesai" dari kesimpulan perjalanan semua halangan dan rintangan yang harus dilalui di dalam hidup ini.

Geronimo

2010-01-18T11:38:00.006+07:00

Geronimo (jur-ahn'-i-moh), atau Goyathlay ( "satu yang menguap"), dilahirkan pada 1829 di barat New Mexico, merupakan salah satu pemimpin suku Apache dalam memerangi kaum kulit putih Eropa yang mengambil beberapa tanah milik suku Apache tersebut di Amerika Utara. Geronimo adalah pemimpin Apache paling terkenal karena jangka kepemimpinannya yang relatif lama dari semua pemimpin Indian yang ada, dan merupakan pemimpin Apache terakhir yang kemudian resmi menyatakan bendera putih terhadap Amerika Serikat. Penyerahan diri geronimo pada tahun 1886 adalah perlawanan suku indian yg terakhir di Amerika Serikat. Pada akhirnya, kelompok ini terdiri dari hanya 16 pejuang, 12 perempuan, dan 6 anak-anak.

12BB

2009-12-22T22:44:00.011+07:00

Kita tidak pernah berjumpa,
dan kita bukanlah kawan.

Lantas... kita apa?

bagai kacang lupa kulitnya

2009-12-20T14:43:00.005+07:00

Mungkin anda semua amnesia? gegar otak? hilang ingatan? reinkarnasi? atau pasca operasi?
Ah, konklusinya sebut saja lupa?
Atau anda semua terlalu mengikat apa yang anda semua dapat agar tak pergi lagi seperti yang telah terjadi kepada saya dengan anda semua?

Bagus. Dua belas jari saya angkat!
Anda semua telah berhasil menggagalkan sejarah hidup anda.
Seperti yang dialami negeri ini, apa memang benar sejarah dan fase bagaimana terbentuknya apa yang sekarang telah terbentuk nilainya null dimata penggunanya?
Dimanakah kenasionalismeannya?

Seperti halnya pemakai batik ponorogo hanya disaat trend menggema.
Hanya disaat butuh, ataupun kasarnya sebut saja kerabat-kerabat anda yang tercinta sedang meninggalkan anda.

Saran saya untuk anda sekalian, berkacalah. Bandingkan dengan apa yang anda lihat untuk beberapa tahun mendatang. Apakah sama?
Tidak. Kali ini saya punya bukti autentik yang dapat menjatuhkan alibi anda semua.

Penjara sosial, 4 tahun kemudian.
Naif- Haru biru dan sebutir decolgen dengan air hangat.
Surabaya, 2009.

the last picture i saw you

2009-12-18T11:01:00.005+07:00

Dengan gentle kamu berkata tempat tinggalmu bertepatan di sebelah kediaman Keith Emerson.
Di ukiran memori yang terpampang di situs umum itu kamu memperlihatkan keindahan kekasih barumu.

Accordion.
Oh, sungguh, melihat dirimu memeluk accordion dan berkata bahwa tempat tinggalmu bertepatan di sebelah kediaman Keith Emerson, membuatku... aaaargh.

Save as, ok, download 100 %, done, dan...
kuperlihatkan apa yang kudapat kepada kerabat-kerabatku.

"Gambar ini serupa dengan apa yang tercetak di t-shirt putihku, sayangnya gambar ini bukanlah menggambarkan seseorang yang buta, ia hanya melirik kekasih indahnya. Jemari indahnya terlihat seperti memainkannya dengan indah. Benar-benar terlihat seperti pemuda yang gemar meminum kopi bersama Keith Emerson setiap harinya di halaman belakang!", dengan mudahnya aku berseru.

Konklusinya sangat jelas, aku tak bisa berharap apa-apa, hanya mampu memandang wujud mayamu dengan radius 500 kilometer dari tempat tinggalmu.

Andai saja aku ini adalah seorang Keith Emerson...

JIMI HENDRIX

2009-12-05T11:19:00.001+07:00

Mungkin, hanya mungkin kamu bisa mengatakan bahwa gitarnya mungkin sedikit tidak disetem saat "The star spangled banner"...
(BERANI-BERANINYA KAMU MENGHINA SANG MAESTRO-SANA! PULANG KE COMBERAN TEMPAT ASALMU, DASAR MANUSIA NORAK, dan sebagainya)

obsesi

2009-11-24T20:24:00.002+07:00

Seniman, bukan hanya direpresentasikan sebagai pelukis atau pemusik.
Tetapi pencipta.

when PARKING DISASTER AREA rule the world.

2009-09-03T19:12:00.005+07:00

New messages (4):

Buddog
03-Sep-2009 18:52
RETY! PDA MINUS LO lagi mamam ber4 nich..hahaha enak loch!!

Donutz Nutz
03-Sep-2009 18:52
Rety PDA MINUS LO lagi mamam ber4 nich. Hahaha enak loch.

Chupikachu
03-Sep-2009 18:52
Rety, PDA MINUS LO lagi mamam berempat nich!!ENAK LOCH!Hahaha

Achonk
03-Sep-2009 18:52
Retiii PDA MINUS LO lagi mamam berempat nich! Hahaha ENAK LOWCH!

***

Chunong, bana, buddog, kakek... I love you so much, more than words can say. Thanksalot, you all have been accompanying me for these more than 6 years. I still remember our memories, from the first to the very last. The first was we had a crazy night on pesantren ramadhan. And the last was we had the best moment of karaokekarokoe-ing on nav, before my leaving to Surabaya :')

Thank you. You all live in Bandung right now, fight for future. Me too, though my blinking here is a hundredth kilometers from your place(s), but i do still feel you all here, taste the joy of ours.

:') I really miss you all. We really really had the greatest memories of mine. I don't know what to say. Ive said WHEN PARKING DISASTER AREA RULE THE WORLD before, and now, i know that PARKING DISASTER AREA ALWAYS RULE THE WORLD.
For me you're not only mentioned as friends, besties, family, or youre not only five ridiculous girls caught in the world of rock and roll.
But you're ME! Youre all are ME, multiplied by five.

You all always live in my heart, mind, body, and soul. I love you all, it wont increased wont decreased, its constant. Forever.

first quotes at college

2009-08-24T15:34:00.004+07:00

I hate monday,

I hate monday in the morning,

I hate monday in the morning at 7 o'clock.

<3

2009-08-23T09:49:00.005+07:00

This will be the greatest date ever.

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Characteristics.

2009-08-19T17:13:00.003+07:00

Abase.
Bashfulness.
Bestial.
Blandness.
Childishness.
Circularity.
Cowardice.
Cranky.
Fussiness.
Gaucherie.
Knavery.
Mulishness.
Peevishness.
Pusillanimity.
Rabidity.
Vulnerability.

What do you REALLY want from me?

ADDIO & CIAO

2009-08-17T22:50:00.004+07:00

Delete the name.
Burn the letters.
Erase the words.
Memories.
Stories.
All.

Hi, seems like i know ya?
Oh, there you are, the one, the blamer one, all the time.
The abstract one.
Unpredictable.
Unreachable.
Mysterious.

The toots, you will still play yours, i know.
I predict you will still sing a whiter shade of pale, proudly.
Still pry up those unintentional faults, with no way out.
Do all the habits that you used to do.
But you wont hear the streaming tears again from the phone.
I'm sorry,
but maybe you will lose an important thing.

I want to say i hope you wont forget or a stuff like that,
but this time, a wisely twice thinking.
I set the hidden chortles of an evil.
A painful evil.

I burn the paths.

You say goodbye,
I say hello.

July morning

2009-07-19T16:38:00.002+07:00

"There I was on a july morning, looking for love.."

Still remember how happy this self, in every july morning.
Holidays, birthdays, and another cheering affairs.

Several years later,
The pollypocket is still hanging on the rack.
The pen, tee, hamsters, even the rat on hamburger.
But the heart isnt.
It isnt, and it wont.

prisonbreaking

2009-06-03T21:06:00.006+07:00

I wanna be the president in this sovereign prison.
I rule the members.
I fix father, I teach mother, I command sisters.
And clean all these whole messy things.
So I can build a brand new whitened family tree.
No more anger, no more pain, lies, even sins.
No more 'the flying abstract thoughts' beneath this skin.
They will be burnt in the hell of ours.

If i were the president in this sovereign prison...
I would prisoning the imprisoner.
I would bury the law, sure, because i already had my own.
I would kill the isolating time.
The most precious murder we've ever seen.
I would build the special graveyards, the gifts for us.
We could find a brand new title there; our second prison, the most everlasting place.
Joy, happiness, purity, for real.
What again?
Together we hold our hands.
In eternal rest.

Like you care

2009-06-01T08:41:00.004+07:00

"Kenapa kita musuhan?"
"Tidak. Aku tak mau punya musuh. Aku netral"
"Kalau butuh bantuan bilang saja"
"Angkat barang untuk pindahan"
"Cari jodoh mungkin?"
"TAU LAH"
"hahaha"

***

"Pindahan? jadi sudah pasti?"
"iya sebelum tanggal 18 juni"
"selamat2 cihuy"

LIKE YOU CARE.
SEPERTI ANDA PEDULI SAJA ATAS KEPERGIAN SAYA.
Faktanya anda hanya bisa typing "hahaha".
Bagi saya itu tidak setimpal dengan apa yang saya rasakan selama ini.

"SELALU"

2009-05-28T14:44:00.002+07:00

Apa makna kata "selalu"?
Apakah benar yang diucapkan akan dijalankan?
Bukankah kata "selalu" itu bersifat abadi?

Contohnya saja : "aku selalu mencintai kamu" dengan "aku mencintai kamu"
jelas sekali berbeda maknanya.

Dengan kata "selalu", kita memiliki kesan bahwa kita meyakinkan pihak lain.
Bahwa kita sungguh-sungguh mengucapkan hal yang benar-benar (akan) terlakukan dan tulus dalam melakukan perbuatan, probabilitasnya adalah bulat.

Tapi ketika semua kata "selalu" yang diucapkan tidak terlaksana (siapa pula yang dapat memastikan bahwa perbuatan kita akan berjalan sesuai rencana), apa yang dapat dipikirkan oleh pihak yang dijanjikan?

INGKAR JANJI. KHIANAT. OMONG KOSONG. TIPUAN. Sekiranya adalah itu.

Terlebih lagi kalau kita menyisipkan kata "akan".
Menjadi: "aku akan selalu mencintai kamu"
(Terdengar menggelikan ya,well,thats just an example :-$)
Uh,serasa itu adalah janji sesaat. Kepesimisan seperti muncul setiap kata itu terucap, karena pihak tersebut terkesan seperti ragu-ragu tapi sungguh yakin dengan apa yang ia ucapkan.
Seperti move forward move backward.
Kasihan pihak yang dirugikan, terlebih lagi jika pribadi pihak tersebut pandai mengingat hal- hal yang detail. Bisa jadi tuntutan batin!

Memang tidak pantas mulut ini berbicara sesuatu yang BELUM TENTU abadi.
Jadi,jaga omonganmu, dan pikirkan pihak yang rugi atas janji- janjimu dengan kata "selalu".

Primitif

2009-05-17T21:04:00.004+07:00

kalian dengan mudahnya menghamburkan hasil keringat kalian.
Laptop, handphone, perhiasan, tanah, perabotan rumah tangga, LCD, modem, rumah, dan mobil mewah.

Mengapa tidak kalian investasikan saja untuk pendidikan anak-anak kalian kedepannya!?

coba sejenak direnungkan?

2009-04-23T15:28:00.003+07:00

Ketika orang- orang berkata menjadi seniman harus mengeraskan distorsimu, menghitamkan kulitmu, atau membeli berlusin- lusin kain kanvas, ternyata jauh didalam pemikiran saya filosofi- filosofi demikian sangatlah melesat jauh.

Waktu saya berada di usia aqua, sempat terlintas dalam pemikiran- pemikiran dangkal di hati ini, bahwa SAYA KALAU SUDAH BESAR HARUS, WAJIB, DAN KUDU JADI MUSISI! MASUK IKJ JURUSAN SENI MUSIK, PUNYA SUAMI GITARIS CLASSIC ROCK YANG HANDAL SEPERTI JIMMY PAGE, DAN MEMBINA BAHTERA RUMAH TANGGA SEBAGAI IBU ROCKER YANG MEMBIMBING ANAK- ANAKNYA UNTUK TERUS MENYALAKAN DISTORSI MEREKA DI STUDIO DALAM RUMAH BERSAMA SUAMI SETIAP MALAM.

Hahaha. Alangkah indahnya khayalan saya waktu itu, karena saya sempat berfikir saya dapat melakukannya. Well, bukan berarti di masa depan saya tidak sanggup melakukannya, cuma, yah... kalian pikir saja betapa dangkalnya pemikiran bocah berusia belasan tahun, bersegaram putih hijau, dan berlagak seperti rockstar bintang lima ketika bertemu mic di studio gitara.
Ckckckck. Ampun nduk, kalo ibukmu krungu yo' opo...?

Lucu ya, konyol kedengarannya. Waktu itu saya berasa monster yang paling benar, berasa yang paling rebel. Padahal beberapa tahun kedepan jika berkaca ke masa lalu, saya sedikit malu melihat bayanga saya. Bocah ingusan begitu saja, nggak perlu di reken, cah ayu. Tapi ya namanya manusia. Hahahaha. Intinya semua orang pasti merasakan apa yang pernah saya alami lah. Bagi bocah- bocah sekalian yang masih terintimidasi oleh orang tua, coba baca tulisan ini 5 tahun kedepan, dan bandingkan reaksi anda. Mesam mesem cengar cengir kah anda? hahaha.

Kembali lagi.

Lalu, dalam jangka waktu yang lumayan lama, saya dengan ringannya (bukannya tidak konsisten loh, cuma bandingkan saja tingkatan perkembangan pemikiran dimasa aqua dan alumni aqua) mengubah jeng jeng jeng jeng masa depan saya, apa yang saya tuju, apa yang saya rencanakan, dan bagaimana saya menjalankan semuanya.

"Ret lo kuliah ngambil apa?"
"ELEKTRO"
"kok elektro?"
"iye mau jadi tukang servis"

Apa bedanya seniman dengan pakar elektro (amin)?
Apa seniman itu orang yang setiap harinya membubuhkan berbagai macam cat di atas kanvas dengan pemandangan indah?
Ataukah seniman itu seseorang yang menunggu angkutan umum lewat agar bisa menyumbangkan suaranya demi sesuap nasi?

Dan pakar elektro adalah seseorang yang setiap saat meluangkan waktunya untuk menengok dan mempelajari (lagi dan lagi) ensiklopedinya yang jumlahnya tak terhingga itu?
Atau pakar elektro adalah seseorang yang tidak gentar meneliti barang rongsokan dan menghabiskan waktunya untuk barang- barang yang bisa kita dapatkan dengan gratis tersebut?

HEY! KITA INI HIDUP DI ERA MODERN!
WANITA SAJA BISA JADI PRESIDEN! LANTAS?

Seniman = Eletronikawan.
Melukiskan keindahan manusia di atas kanvas = Membuat alat yang membantu kinerja manusia
Membuat komposisi nada = Membuat alat yang dapat mengomposisi nada.

Semua berkesinambungan.
Dua-duanya saling menciptakan karya yang besar.
Membutuhkan tingkat kreativitas yang tinggi untuk menjadi yang paling profesional.
Mematahkan aturan.
Inovasi dibutuhkan.

Seniman adalah seseorang yang menciptakan karya seni,bukan?
Apa pelukis itu seniman? Benar. Pelukis menciptakan lukisan.
Apa gitaris itu seniman? Sangat benar. Gitaris menciptakan solo gitarnya.
Lalu apakah elektronikawan itu seniman? Tidak.

TIDAK SALAH LAGI! Elektronikawan menciptakan barang- barang elektronik dimana tidak semua orang bisa menciptakannya.
Jadi seberapa tinggi? Seberapa besar? Sedalam apakah nilai seninya?

Ukurlah,coba.

Tapi saya tidak mengatakan bahwa selain elektronikawan bukan seniman.
Yang membuat rumah? seniman.
Yang membuat obat? seniman juga.

Coba sejenak direnungkan.

Saya suka menghubungkan ini semua. Dan terimakasi Ya Allah karena semua saling terkait.

Jadi, kaitkan mimpi anda. Kaitkan semuanya.
Apa yang anda inginkan dan apa yang anda rencanakan kedepan.
Kunci utamanya: Renungkan.

the last

2008-12-31T11:41:00.004+07:00

Detik ini juga: Rabu, 31 Desember 2008 pukul 11:43 WIB.

Dalam hitungan jam, kita semua secara otomatis akan menambah kuantitas usia kita.

...

Selamat bertambahtua-ria.

apologize

2008-12-23T09:10:00.002+07:00

i'm so sorry to you people, i tried my best yesterday but the links still working error as hell.

let me try again (that now i'm trying) , and pray them will work normally, soon.

now i'm busy with these jobs, editing this and that, writing this and that.

wish me luck!

I'll update this later.

putar kepalamu 180 derajat selama 2 kali.

2008-12-03T18:01:00.002+07:00

Ah, betapa besarnya rasa rindu saya kepada masa lalu saya. Ketika saya bisa sepuasnya bertemu teman- teman yang brilian.
Disaat mereka memainkan gitar, bass, drum, dan berteriak untuk saya.Ingatan saya masih jelas ketika saya menemukan segelintir teman baru yang menarik untuk diajukan pertanyaan.

"heh, ada yang bisa ngelesin drum nggak?"

"kalo mau belajar drum sama bonnie tuh!"

Saya ingat ketika saya memainkan gitar di sore hari, menulis lagu yang berjudul 13. Betapa saya terharu membacanya karena lagu itu ditujukan untuk seseorang yang menggagalkan rencana terbesar saya di kehidupan. Oh, mungkin detik ini dia sudah lupa bahwa dahulu ia pernah berjanji akan membuat group band yang besar, menjadi rock star, dan setiap ia terbangun dari tidurnya, hanya sayalah yang ia lihat didepannya.

Lalu ketika semuanya berakhir. Saya tidak pernah berfikir akan semengecewakan ini. Saya kecewa. Sesal memang selalu datang meskipun diantisipasi. Saya kecewa mengapa dulu saya menjauhkan diri dari kehidupan yang (dulu) membuat saya muak. Saya berpisah dengan mereka yang saya sebut kehidupan, lalu bertemu kepribadian- kepribadian baru, dan dibuat bodoh oleh mereka. Karena saya tidak mengerti apa yang mereka bicarakan. Dunia baru.

Tapi jauh didalam lubuk hati saya, saya tidak seberapa mengenali sesal. Karena saya bertemu orang- orang yang telah mengajarkan saya banyak hal.
Bagaimana saya harus menjadi seseorang yang idealis, dan bagaimana cara membedakan apa yang kau sebut 'produsen' dan 'konsumen' secara musikalitas.
DAN APA ARTI SENI YANG SESUNGGUHNYA.

Meskipun tak lama kemudian Tuhan memberhentikan pelajaran yang sebenarnya ingin saya pelajari lebih dalam.
Mungkin saya terlalu bersikeras dalam mencurahkan pemikiran. Dan mungkin ia sudah muak dengan saya.
Lalu saya melarikan diri dan mengingat-ingat bahwa mimpilah prioritas utama yang harus dikejar. Inilah tujuan hidup dan kesimpulan dari tahun- tahun yang sudah berlalu.

Lalu ketika saya melihat kedepan...
Ah, saya hanya bisa berencana. Siapa gerangan yang rencananya tidak ingin berjalan dengan lancar tanpa hambatan?

howdy

2008-11-08T17:39:00.003+07:00

it's only 5:42 in the afternoon.
a moment ago i just woke up, i felt hungry then, but i try to coped it with turn on this lovely pc.
i saw my blog, oh its too shabby, its old and i realize its never filled out.
holy cow, i need a new skin.
i'm gonna make it for myself like i ever made it, like when i was so busy.

anyway, have you ever felt so dejected caused of something that you hestitant of what you see is between real or not?
i mean, its like something that you want to reach, or youve been wanting to reach, or something that you had reached before you know you had reached it.

there's a girl outta there, listens to the music in every gloomy night.
she worries about her life. she wants to catch her dreams, that she has been dreaming off during this 3 years. a couple of years ago she found something that changes her life. she found a lot of something that she never felt before. she has a problem, life problem, hard life problem, hard life hard problem. she is in a feeling of hesitate right now. she doesnt know why. she's so hesitate what she want to pick? her dreams or her "new found problem"? its so hard to catch her dreams again because that girl is about to give up, she thinks this is the end of her life. her problem is too hard, to hard to be faced. i dont know, i just wanna help her, but how?

i'm just asking to you all, have you ever felt it? what will you pick between of your dreams in future or your present life? i'm sure you will pick the first one. but how? how would you face your future if you couldnt face your present life? you might be sick, or depressed, too obsessed of what youve been wanting to reach but you never realized that today and past were helping you to motivate you to reach your dreams. you learn from them. remember that.
and your present, uh, its today, its right now, this SECOND!
it will be your history as time passes by, so you have to face it carefuly. you will fall someday if you didnt face it successfully.
still asking, which one do you refer to?
your dreams or your present life?
obsessed or let it flow?

ah that girl, she cries again.
help her, please?

classic

2008-10-04T17:40:00.002+07:00

Me? I'm wondering much.
How about you,dear?

What?
You missed me?
Oh can i hear that statement once again for sure?

Me?
I do. But i don't want me to get involved with your classic game for a hundreth times.
I'm sorry.
Biggest no and more friggin no if you still have your own prestige,red.

But i was too shocked.
I didnt know what was that.

"GOD GIMME A COURAGE".
I dont know that was only the lyric that you sang or that was the real words that you wanted.

I sang your classic songs.
Recalled me to our offline messages.
Short thinking when everytime i get myself alone with my thoughts : i was too jerk!
Too jerk to say those statements in our last long conversation!
I wish i could turn back time.

Pashiont.
Is always needed in every situation of our short cute tale.
...
...
...

Oh would you mind if i sing your another classic song?

Time machine.

I was sitting there with a cute dress that once you said thats too cute & you with your simple clothes; black jacket, t-shirt, and denim.
I was too mad.
But actually i was uncontrolled.
I admit it.
But why should i regret?
Oh,if only 12th of september wasnt exist.

Time machine.

terhenti

2008-09-23T20:02:00.002+07:00

membuka mata dan masih tak tersadarkan,
sehingga ketika mereka tertuju kepada uap tungku yang mulai terbebaskan,
mereka tak berkutik.

masih saja meratapi mengapa.
ditinggalkan oleh tak terhingganya pertanyaan.

hey, apakah cerita ini tak jauh berbeda dengan yang lain?
dengan milikmu, contohnya?
apakah kau keberatan jika kita disamakan?
tapi mengapa kau dan aku tidak ingin menghibur diri bersama?
kami terpecahkan oleh mereka? apa itu benar?

tapi semua sudah terhentikan,
tidak ada bayang-bayang yang tersisa
semua nyata.
tapi retak,
diretakan oleh pernyataan yang melambung jauh,
saat kumenengok kearahnya, ia melambung cepat, tergesa- gesa menghampiri hatiku.
dan dibuat olehnya aku seperti ini.

"aku jahat, kan?"
ia berkata dengan pikiranku yang menelusuri alam dimana keabstrakan dinomorsatukan.
hanya bisa berpikir keras.
sekeras pikiran yang hanya bisa dipikirkan.
dan tanpa sepengetahuannya.

pemikirannya tanpa sepengetahuanku,
ketika semua berbalik arah.
pikirannya melambung bersama pernyataan yang telah meracuniku dengan sempurna.
ia memutuskan inilah yang seharusnya diputuskan.
memutuskan.
keputusan.
putuskan.

tapi hati ini tetap saja bersikeras.
mengerti, dimengerti.
inginnya.
saling mencoba, dan saling menginginkan.

tapi, sudahlah.
aku hanya bisa bersudah-sudah ria.
jangan kaitkan aku dengan cerita yang ada.
meskipun hanya bisa kukenang, suatu hari nanti.

mengejar penghapus luka saat dikejar oleh pertanyaan.
apakah akan berakhir dengan sempurna?

mengapa saja dirimu tak benar-benar lenyap?
mengapa saja ingatanku tak benar-benar dimusnahkan?
apakah ingatanku yang akan mengusap perlahan akan dirimu?
ataukan dirimu terhadap ingatanku?

aku ingin dihapus, dikarenakan aku dan perhentianmu.
andai saja kau tahu.

terimakasih wahai pemberhenti.

jangan pernah beranggapan sebagai pengecewa

2008-09-19T21:49:00.002+07:00

please, i'm begging you.
just clear it all. clear, and we both will live happily.
i dont wanna be done by this for a second time.
no, i dont wanna cheat and lie bout these feelings.

we're like strangers.
i'm okay, extremely.
but i wont let you move backward.

jangan pernah beranggapan sebagai pengecewa.
jangan pernah berfikir sebagai perusak pikiran.
jangan pernah berkata akhir dari semuanya.
jangan.
jangan lakukan.
jangan pernah mencoba untuk melakukannya jika tidak ingin dianggap sebagai pengecewa.
jangan.
jangan lakukan apapun.
duduklah dan berfikirlah secara jernih.
ingatlah, kenanglah semuanya.

i'm so sorry, i made you like stranger.
i made you like somebody else.
i made you died by all your thoughts.
i'm so sorry, i didnt mean to.

what am i supposed to do?
supposed to say?

honestly, i cant.
i cant let you go!

:((

don't say it will stay this way forever

2008-09-18T21:29:00.003+07:00

what went? what happened?
cant you see im wondering much like the burning flame in here?
have you ever tasted like this?
why? what has been happening so far?

youre too confused, i know.
i know your purpose is to make me happy, just like mine.
but... its not the right line that you have to pick.
not to say that youre confused and dont know what to do then you left me hanging on.
hanging on with a thousand of thoughts; of messed up thoughts.
you would never know, even though you said you know.
you would never.

should i be the one that cuts this fairytales?
i know, its hard, to leave you. Its really hard to be left!
you begged me.
and you forced me.
i couldnt take it anymore.
i didnt wanna see you like this.

should i cut it again? is this what you want?

NO! I CANT! I CANT DO IT!
I'm not a best leaver.
I'm not! none at all!

i just... dont know whats wrong, whats been happening, what went on, what happened
with you.
you didnt tell me.
you wont tell me.
and youre not afraid if theres a wall-separateur between us.
thats what makes me confused.

its okay, im strong.
i will learn how to loose you.
i cant see clearly now, my brain has gone.
comeback to me anytime you want.
but, ah! i dont know! i dont know! i dont knooooow!

-the lesson that you'll never learn-

heavy eyes

2008-09-13T21:30:00.002+07:00

These eyes are heavy its like when metallica rules me.
Aaaa i talked with trauma's nino (the vocalist) this afternoon via yahoo, and he's so kind eeewww im glad he's kind so its like i increase the number of greatest friend. He offered me to go to the PMM or PPM or you named it, at kemang this nite, where the metalheads hang out, but i denied. Wtf? Does he want me to go alone there? At nite? thats freakin insane! Ah, i just wanna be mature so i can go anywhere alone without a doubt. I will have so many friends. Hmm i heard theres a classic rock comunnity named banner. Thats kool, i wanna join. But how?
Yes, one day, red! You'll be old enough to do what you want to do! Just wait.
Hmm i currently listening to blues! SRV, janis joplin, the kings *lol* (albert,freddie,bb), lucky peterson, and so on. I got em all from my lovely sea genie. Thanks for the influences and the poisons! you guys rock!

move forward not backward!

2008-09-13T07:09:00.002+07:00

Like the name of the band that i have ever managed, FORWARD BACKWARD! It says move forward not backward!

So I'm gonna manage myself rite now, to be develop! yay! A moment ago, my 'knowing-each-other-from-yahoo-conference-that-invited-by-master-semut' friend called dian tigamartil phoned me and as usual told some stories. He asked me to make a classic rock band and he wants to be the manager. Ah! Thats a real kick ass offer! But, yah, you know thats a number one difficulty. Its really hard to recruit people to be the member, moreover for classic rock. Is there anyone who loves classic rock in hi skool? Nope. Mostly of them are faggots, i admit it. A couple of days ago me and syasa were sitting down together while the teacher was blurting out, we talked about how faggot the faggots in our hi skool. Ah there are a bunch, theyre overdose. We just can find only several people that hmmm we just can call em normal, not faggots. We didnt mean to picking friends,but we just emmm did some little observation and we found the conclusion. Ah. Damn. Makes me regret, regret much, why i picked this skool. Most of them are the real faggots. They sing nauseating indonesian top 40 songs, they go to the mall where the other faggots meet each other, they have 17 ex boyfriends and 25 ex girlfriends, they just went to the cinema by the age of 17, they have a bursting laugh and it sounds so creepy, they wear tawdry clothes and dont have any sense of thing, they just know how to do the homeworks and how to finish the exams at skool, they only talk about lovelife and it sounds so creepy, they update their friendster with their flickering profile (and they proud), they love trend very much and dont care the trend is fit in or nah, they mention "jazz" as their fave music besides they just listen to indonesian top 40 songs such as maliq tompi ran whothefugever and dont know whos miles davis or frank sinatra, they mention "emo" as their fave music and they follow itself as their lifestyles, they love punk rock with proud of telling people that they listen to avril lavigne and good charlotte, they say they love metal but they dont know how to headbanging, they say they hate faggots but they never look at themselves, and so on! ah it increases my sin with mention the typicals of faggots. Sorry, God.

Ehmmm lets forget bout the faggots, we just dont give a damn bout em. I dont care,huh.
And now, Voila! Lets see what are the things that i wanna do to make this self develop.

Me and syasa planned to make homemade shirts, sandals, bags, etc. We have a lot of ideas in our dashing brains *evil laugh* and we just planned that we will make it this week or next week. Yesterday me and her bought the equipments at store. Cant wait!

Hmm keyboard lesson. Thanks to my monster sea genie for teaching me 12 bar blues, shuffle, history, and the other blues things, and...mmm keyboard. He makes me enthusiasm much! And rachel, thanks for the lesson too. We teach each other, dont we? aaarghhh! :) I play warmness on the soul on and on and i found out this morning that i play it fluently! :) yay! I just have to buy some lesson books because my monster's the beatles book doesnt produce a thing.

Ahaha i cant wait! i have to keep my money to do a bunch of brilliant things!

and oh sorry i blurted out :p

undeveloped creature

2008-09-05T22:22:00.000+07:00

ah laaaaaaame. Two songs take a very very long time. Bureaucracy possessed! Ah go to hel with bureaucracy! ah nah bureaucracy isnt more than a ghost! (wtf you're tryin to jeer but it looks so ahahaha freakin absuuuurd-wanna-makethingsfunny-butyoufailed-oooooh)

haha. Things get unclearly now, since i lost my thoughts about how to make this self to be develop! to move forward, not backward! aaaaah again on and the same, *dopey* as this eyes are heavey like a smoking hell.

Ah, he said "dont wait for me". What? What? What? Don't wait for me cuz i wont just sit by?! (guess what what that's a lyric :D) Ah whatever, sea genie! :( hmmmmm why do i always pretend like i dont care huh? whaaaaaaaaaaaat aaaaaaaah you do the same way too huh? aaaaah terrible! prestige always be the number one thought we've been together for a long time? aaaaaah toreful.

:(

undeveloped undevelope, how to rub out yer name? how? how?

:( uuuuuuuuuuuh toreful.

bangga amat

2008-09-03T12:41:00.001+07:00

bangga amat dibenci. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

nobody

2008-08-15T07:16:00.002+07:00

"silence here i am, here i am silent
Bright and clear its what I am
I have Died"

you dont understand what its like
you just can blame, blame blame blame you blame me
i'm stuck
no forward, nor backward
i'm exhausted
you threat me like this
i just wanna sing with anyone who wants to join
and laugh it, about everything that we could make
i dont mean to stay away
but
i just wanna sit at the corner of this room
and close my eyes
for a long time
a better time

the hardest part of standing between the contradict faggots

2008-08-11T16:19:00.001+07:00

Could I build my own friend?
If being neutral never feels so right.
Stuck,
confused.
Standing between you and your rival.
Between my friends,errr between faggots.
Can you tell me when ive been starting act like this?
Don't say that i have to be a hardthinker, a self fixer.
I have to do what you tell me to.
No,that wont make this story to be straight.
I know you'll answer my questions with questions.
But you have to know,
You have to know everything.
If you were me.
If only your soul lived in here.
But i know you'll shoot back my greatest words.
Ok,ok,i put down my gun then.
And one thing,
You wont ever ever ever get what you wanna get.
Got it?
Im dizzy.

is this the end?

2008-08-08T18:11:00.000+07:00

you make me crazy,
but I was too patient

I cant take it anymore
I just wanna erase our memories
I hope they could be fade

whats the explaination?
whats the explaination when we're done?

bye then,dont try to catch me.
we have our own way.
individuals.
lets break the communication.

bye.

people changed

2008-08-04T18:11:00.003+07:00

*whatta wonderful kid. His name is zacky. A sweetest victim*

People? Is there anybody wants to answer? Hello?

Nah, the fact is nah.

People changed.

Fastly.

As time passes by.

increase-decrease your age with say:

2008-07-31T05:17:00.000+07:00

HAPPY BURST-FREAKIN DAY MATTHEW CHARLES SANDERS!

Wish you ol the best.
Get the cupcake and celebrate it!
ta daaaaaaah...

Im nothing in your eyes,aint i?

2008-07-26T16:45:00.001+07:00

You and your past. So beautiful. You laughed,you messed up,you did your pleasure with people that you love.

Youre ashamed,arent you?
Of me,to face the fact,to tell people that hey this is my newly partner.
Arent you?
I know.

I admit i ever felt that way. But i thought youre too fugly. The fact u arent.

And i thought you wanted to show off.
The fact you didnt.

Why am i scared?
What am i afraid of?

Could you find me those answers?

You said you do. I hope you told the truth. But who knows? There are two possibilites that might happen,right?
So im not the one that you can blame if the curiousity control this situation,aint i?

Why cant we laugh?
Why cant we?

I wont regret. Its my choice.
Just dont tell me the bad news.

Heart,prepare yourself.
The battle will face you.

Everythings gonna be alright. Trust yourself.

Im voiceless,tearless,but i feel something stabbed me.
Tell all my friends im dead.
:((

communication breakdown

2008-07-26T11:24:00.003+07:00

mute!

hello its me, a dumb creature. I'm a best whisperer. Billie Joe sings his song "redundant" to me. That nite he told me that his song is worth for my life. Thangs,bud! I listen to all the way up songs and bands and i imagine im the one that play them with my rokkkah band. I jump up on my bed, imagine the bed is a stage, i scream raaaaaaawr and no one hears me, i bet. I talk with my hands, typing writing and drawing. Everybody stares not listens. I'm all ears. I shout "SPEAK UP! SPEAK UP!" everyday and jump and jump again. I'm not like you. So you better thankfull to God because you can sing.

I'm voiceless.

retycular and her bitter throat

2008-07-24T13:38:00.001+07:00

i found the box connector. Not a found though, but he told me where he hides it. But i will always call it "discovery". Lol.
Hmmm im at home, skipping school, well grounded of this bitter throat and body temperature that high and higher with each passing time.
I lost my thursday lessons but thats ok, i have to face it, you know.
And wednesday will be the whole world mathematics day since this week.
Because i have 4 hours mathematics lessons on wednesday.
Dang.
Umm nothing special recently. School is back with moving class system and it makes me to be trapped in my boredom everyday, admit it guys i miss my old class and my old classmates and how me and my chairmate laugh at people and how i break the rules and my mischief. I miss a relaxive time. I miss everything. I hate adaptation. I hate to going thru all of these situations till i comfortable.
I hate teachers. I hate my classmates. I hate lessons. I hate how they say that in a less than 1 year i have to study harder. I hate them because i used to face my relaxive time. But bleh, for a bright futa. I want my bright futa. I have a bunch of goals.
So i have to write them on my notebook, write a schedule. Sounds crappy but whatever i just wanna manage thisself.

I'm growing older.
Nobody supports.
I wanna earn money.
And Im ugly as i wanna be.

i certainly can breathe normally again! sigh

2008-07-10T13:46:00.003+07:00

SIGHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
GO IN AND OUT!

IM HOME RITE NOW! IM BACK TO MY LOVELY PRISON!
everybody, put your hands up!
CLAP YOUR HANDS SAY YEAH!

*roomy*

hmmm what? i have to update everything!
i have to change this skin, this is too worn out! yucks!
just wait.

and omg im super duper extra exhausted.

Crazy train

2008-07-10T07:51:00.000+07:00

The iceman is cutting his stuff, i'm staring.
Its a late arrival, and i'm freakin exhausted.
Dead tired.
I can't sleep with a chair.
I can't drink coffee after get up.
And i have to go to your (too sick to call it mine) freakin school, to face people and make damn sure theyll happy to see this face, thats what they want.
I'm too exhausted.
And i wanna throw up.
I have to text two persons,but i'm lazy, i don't wanna texting, i just wanna posting.
This blood,right here, makes me scared.
And mom is shouting.
On and on.

5 days more

2008-07-09T03:02:00.001+07:00

Mmmumbling its almost 3 am and i still cant sleep,still cant tire myself,still cant make my eyes bleed.
Im watching my sister. Shes playing dog island. She drank coffee,overdose,so i think i'll accompany her fighting with mosquitos rite now. Lol.
Im drinking a plain water. Almost half of them left.
I phoned my monster,he didnt answer, i figured out, certainly the network was busy. Omg. He must know how freakin much i miss him. Its been a several of days since i never talked to him. I really miss how he singing me to sleep.
I really in need to hear his voice.
Bleh.
If i could see him rite now.
I wish he texted me but he didnt. God,no.
I hope he missed me too. Like i did.
Whatever.
I hope everythings gonna be alrite.
Hmmmph what again?
Tomorrow ill be back at prison.
And im counting on. 5 days later will be a super duper extra boring day.
Whatta life.
Face it.

And you,the asshole one, lol, i hope i could laugh at your pompous face, rite now.

Hmm my sister asked me to go to bed.
I slept much this afternoon. But yaaaaah i dunno what to do. I'll try to call my monster again,sooner,but i bet hes sleeping rite now.

:((

am i selfish?

I don't belong here

2008-07-04T13:10:00.000+07:00

If I were somebody else.
Stuck.
You'll find me against these organs of body.
Poisons.
I don't deserve anything.
I've been trapped.
Deep blue sea.
And I can't find a place where the darkness lives.
Neither mosquito, nor God.
Don't park yours.
Leave me alone.
Forever?
Fuck no,cuntface.
16 turned me.
Cheesy bite bites my lungs.
God.
I gotta move,sooner.
As soon as possible.
Soonest.
Fastest.
Bring me an oxygen.
Kill me.
I'm a juice.
Torture.
Baked.
I vomit.
Those pills are still working.
Bittersweet revenge.
Sinful.
Panty.
Regreting much.
I should go back.
Unalone.
Dead tired feel me.
Forgotten.
Meow.
Break me.
Drowning
Eyes are watching.
Craps are talking.
You mad once again.
Twice.
Thrice.
How come?
Voila.
I wanna go home.

12th of june 2008: NUD NUD FEAT RETY P.D.A ON RECORDING SESSION

2008-06-14T13:24:00.012+07:00

Hell yeahs! finally! what i've been dreaming and wanting so far, from so friggin long ago, was done at last thursday, 12th of june 2008! I helped nud nud (bebe,ruben,bubuy) to be the additional "girl" voices on the song called my valentine.

***

They recorded 2 songs called my valentine and retycular (which is dedicated to me... thanks master r!). Firstly they told me that there will be 3 songs, theyre my valentine, retycular, and my valentine accoustic. But then the time was running too fast, so they just recorded 2 songs.
Firstly ruben picked me up, and i was so-so. Didnt feel anything, a.k.a FLAT. But then he told me that hes too nervous and he sang along "retycular" while driving, sounded like he cant face the fact that he has to sing and record his voice which is according to his judgement his voice is "crappy". lol. He looked too nervous so it made my heart slowly beating. Then adagio beating beating faster faster and to be the fastest. omg.

Me and him arrived at 1 and half then we met the fellas in front of studio. I was like "whew! strangers". But then ruben introduced them to me. Theyre nudnud's jhs fellas and there are several names i guess that i remember. Hmm then i met bebe and bubuy, they seem looked so nervous too. Then i entered to the studio, and bang! the recording session began.

First, the part of drums. Bubuy made it kewl and perfect! He just took less than 30 minutes, i guess it was too fast for the hard songs. Then after finished he got out and smoked i guess.

Second, the guitars part. What made me scared was when ruben told that we cant make it with A chords but with G chords cuz if we play it with A,it'll be the same like retycular. I was like "omfg, what should i do?. Its too low for me. I fit in Bm! For me A is too low, what the hell will happen if i sing with G? freak!". But the show must go on, you want or you dont. Then i nodded, (better than if i refused. lol). Bebe was so relieved, he was too scared if sing from A, he said its too high for him. Ok, i was like "ok,whatthefuckever". Then ruben made it succesfully. He took the parts in several times, seemed like it was too hard for him.

Third, basses. Bebe made it wonderfully. He seemed like a charming musician, sooo professional.

Then...voila...Vocals. Bebe recorded his voice first then heard it via speakers and we laughed cuz bebe thought his voice is weird. Whereas in my opinion, his voice is assortment between rufio's and SID's vocalists.

And..ME! ME! ME! omg! i messed it up bcoz it was too low for me! but then in the end, after i took it again and again, i made it succesfully. It was because the time was running too. And ruben wasnt take his vocal yet. So want or dont, i have to finish it. Then i finished. I felt dont really satisfied. But,ok,go with the flow.

After me..ruben. He recorded for retycular. Whew his voice is same as tom delonge's! KOOL HU? you rock man!

After that...mixing and mastering. Whew they played my voice and paused it and played it again. It was like a robot! lol. I was too ashamed to listen to mine, so i was better off avoiding than listen to that crappy sound. lol.

And..whew we made it. We were too excited! After recording, mixing, and mastering session the fellas went to burn the CD and copied the songs.

***

The next day...everyone knew me. They were like "omfg youre friggin kewl! congrats!"
Lol. I feel like imma rockstar.

NUD NUD SAYS LETS GO!

***

*Nud Nud feat Rety P.D.A after mixing before mastering*

*Nud nud feat rety P.D.A and the fellas after mastering and after cheering before going home*

*Nud nud feat rety P.D.A and the fellas after mastering and after cheering before going home*

*this is ruben when he recorded his voice on retycular song. I was sat behind the drums and took some pics*

*this is when bubuy took the drums part and accompanied with ruben's guitar then bebe supported bubuy. The fellas were just can laughed and laughed at bubuy*

*I sat on the corner of mixing room, while the fellas were mixing and mastering. Ruben took my pics and said "yiha r! your jacket is match with the carpet wall!"*

*Me and Bebe when I took the vocals. I sucked on part "to be with you". Anyway thanks bebe, you supported me and helped me much! and ruben...for taking this pic. lol*

*Me and Bebe when I took the vocals. Anyway thanks bebe, you supported me and helped me much! and ruben...for taking this pic. lol (look at the yellow light in the right corner! thats awesome)*

*Me and the fellas. They entered the room and messed me up. lol*

***

After that i went to home at 8 or 9 pm, i felt like extremely dead tired! and i thought monster mad at me. lol. monster, you know what is 12th of june? I'll kill you if you dont know. lol.

***

K, i'll write the lyrics next time. For my valentine and retycular. And oh ruben told me they will record again at july, with new song, with me again (YAY!) and with.. high voices. lol.

CANT WAIT!

today is 12th of june, isnt it?

2008-06-12T06:40:00.002+07:00

La la la today is 12th of june! I'm really glad. Really excited!
I will go to recording studio at 11 am.
I will take my vocals to the songs called "my valentine" and "retycular".
I will be very super duper extra nervous.

And today is the day.
You know what.
Lol.
Monstaaaaah.

changed

2008-05-30T17:52:00.002+07:00

PEOPLE AND FAGGOTS EQUAL CHANGED!
ARGH
IDK WHT TO DO WITH THEM.

SHOULD I TURN MY BACK AND HIDE AWAY?
SHOULD I TELL THEM THAT THEY HAVE BEEN PISSING ME OFF?
SHOULD I DUCK OUT?
SHOULD I KILL THEM?
WHAT SHOULD I DO?

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING DOWN IN HERE?

there were a bunch of stories that happened a couple of days back since i didnt post anything

2008-05-25T12:52:00.004+07:00

Sup?
Howdy?
Ask back to me, and make sure that i will answer 'nm' or 'fine'.
Actually, i will just too crazieh lazieh to answer those plain questions about everything that happened in my life currently, but now...
I'm trying to answer honestly.

There were a bunch of stories.
But bleh I really, I swear, I'm super duper extra confused to say and to storytelling you all.

BLAAAAAAAAH
*the audiences dissapointed*

Hmm I just wanna tell you all that I got a guy named Dane Reynolds and he's extremely asshole, and more assholer than the guy named Brandon Gill (but a guy that the name is forbbiden to said is still the assholest!lol).
Oh, Brandon! thank God you recall me! Hmmm talk bout Brandon, he sent me an offline message a couple of days back, (nah! i remember it was on last monday, i just got back frm school and hung out with fellas and suddenly i shocked!) which was said that he lost his computer and he goes to library everyday to get in, and it said that he still loves me, and he called me fiore, and he'll get to the library as much as possible to im me.

I CHORTLED.
I JUST CAN CHORTLED.

Omfg, it made me crazy.
Bleh, whereas me and cheyenne were talked each other and talked bout cotb.
Do you think HE WAS AWARE or NOT?
silly!

and oh...monster.
He played procol harum's song called a whiter shade of pale yesterday
and i felt like omfg i cant hold my tears.
I didnt cry, i just touched.
And his response was just "oh, its not the same like the original version,duh."
OH,NO,YOU PLAYED IT LIKE THE ORIGINAL! PRECISELY
I love how it voiced.
omfg. And I said to him "hey,please play it directly once again next time,k?"
he just said "k", and continued his musical appearance.
OMFG.
I STILL WAS LIKE "OMFG OMFG OMFG" and i recorded the sounds, so i have it on my playlist.
WHOAAAAAA *shouting*

oh...then...hmmmm sooner i'll finish my 11th grade, which is, means, soon i'll be the 12th grade student :'(
omfg time passes by so fast.
omfg
omfg i just dont wanna grow up. But whatta life... it forces us to be what we dont wanna be.
bleh.

Oh! Almost forgotten! You know my ph friend named kc? last monday she said that she wrote an article for her school magazine and she wrote about me! She wrote that she has an indonesian friend named rety and nicknamed red and she just wrote about my stuffs how was i like and she said that im kool *wtf* and she posted my default pic on myspace im! bleh! im famous now! bleh! lol anyway thanks kc, but youre too affluent :) youre my best ph friend! <3

okay im ending it right now. I g2g, i think i have to bathe myself, i smell like shit rite now, and get some foods, for lunch.
Hmm and i'll wait for your call.
And i will have a long conversation with people this day, bcuz im alone at home and idk wht to do.

Bibi everybody.

error?

2008-04-20T07:32:00.001+07:00

why this blogger is error?
idk y,maybe since i posting via cellfone.
help me,idk how to express all these feelings.

Momma Daddeh

2008-04-18T15:07:00.002+07:00

Bleh!
Theres no reason,fag!
Dont blame!
Dont do anything to me!
Momma Daddeh
Please stop asking y!
Please stop!
Im pissing off rite now!
Dont let me down!
Dont let me get me!

Bleh.

God. Please help your little creature.
Here, in this prison.
I need a miracle, i believe in your miracle, God.
I dont wanna show my weary face, God.
Please help me.
I pray to ya tht everything is gonna be alrite.
Save me.
Wake me up inside.

Momma Daddeh
please forgive me.

And I

2008-04-16T05:40:00.000+07:00

I cannot speak
I lost my voice
I'm speechles
I'm losing my mind
I cant think strait
I pretend I dont care
I dont have a brain
I'm scattered
I'm nervous
I'm ashamed
I'm lazy
I dont wanna think
I dont wanna move
I'm stupid
I blinded by the voices
I need a time
I cheated
I'm crazy
I stumble
I've troublesome
I'm falling down
I'm flying
I want it all
I want to break free
I'm scathed
I have a dream
I see my vision burn
I cherised
I'll stay unbound
I cant trust anyone
I do pronounce you
And I
I believe I'll find peace in afterlife

Asshole

2008-04-15T19:21:00.002+07:00

What do you up to, red?
Laughing at that pompous face, his cheats-a-lot face.
Lol.

Ppl going to be the assholes rite now, idk y.
Seems like they just wanna kill me, burn me down.
They know its easily for me, to be killed.
They know, theyre smartasses.
Thangsalot guys!
Youve been ruining this life.
But Im about to thankin you all.
Cus I have the new experiences rite now.

Mmmummmbling...wht shall i do? idk.
Just stare at this monitor everyday, everynite, been busy duh.
And type all nite long, till this ass numb. lol.
But thank god tht disease didnt come. *whts dat?* secret.

Hey,to ppl rite outa there.
Sorry ive been ignoring you.
I dont mean to ignore-some,but you kno im so busy rite now cant talk to anyone.
But i'll be there asap just for you.
What?
cos yer special.
Hmmm.
Its not a lovey dovey some,ppl.
Stop thinking weirdo things,k?
i dont feel anythin.
Stop talking craaaaap.

you cheated

2008-04-10T08:15:00.001+07:00

idk y you cheated,
and uh thank god im a smartass.
next time i kill you.
you kno killing me would be too easy.
but it doesnt mean tht i cant kill anyone easily.

I've been waiting for ya.

2008-04-06T21:51:00.001+07:00

Should i call this a bliss?
Do I deserve to be called a runner?
Are you a place for me to running?
Are you there, telling me the truth?
Are you happy now to be with me?

I type yer name as often as i can.
But idk how are u there.

We can make it,
i have a faith.

And you..
You burn me.
Make me wondering.
Make me waiting.
HBU?
Yes,you burn me,
bcos yer my burny.

I've been waiting for ya.
Till we talk again,eh?

Did u tell the truth?
Or..U just treat me like everyone?

Oh,burny.
Burny burns me.
Lol.
Till we talk again,eh?

I've been waiting for you.

You're forgotten

2008-04-02T06:01:00.001+07:00

*chuckling*

Finally i can forget you.
Though its really hard.
I wont give a damn bout u.
&wont going nuts if u say tht u adoring me.
Wont feel anything if u approaching me.
Wont feel the same way just like ystrday.
If u do anything to me.
So,just do wht u wanna do.
I wont duck out if you're talking shit.
Reach your dreams.
&your past.
I still support u.
I'm still your partner,aint I?
But dont take a point tht i hate u.
I dont hate u.
Just sucked on u a while.
&I wont do it again.
I'm free now.
Wont hurt by your past,your shit talking,your someone who doesnt care for you,your sad stories.
Nah I wont.
&dont try to asking why if I'm avoiding.
It doesn't matter if I'm doing it,rite?
Promise me not to bother me again?
Not to talk bout me behind your friends,eh?
Tempting my mind?
Not to hurt me?
Gut,I know you wont.
So I'm free to be alone rite now.
I have the abstract friends.
Who want to accompanying me.
Without hurting me.
*evil grin*
Do you kno wht yer doing to me?
GO AHEAD!
I don't need anyone!

I am no longer exist

2008-03-08T10:34:00.002+07:00

See,people?
What again?
I really mean I am no longer exist.
Except on myspace.

No time to update the accounts on friendster.
I dont have any time.
I'm extremely busy recently, so I'm about to apologize to you, people.

I'm home I'm tired but I'm free

2008-03-01T11:55:00.002+07:00

Last nite I was so silly.
Why I slept too fast?
Why I didnt care about you?
Why?
Then if I answered it last nite, I would be a new fag today.
The fact that: I read it this morning and I havent answered yet!
and stomachache made me nuts.
the 'snakes dream' thoo.
Fvck meh.

Bleh,
I'm home I'm tired but I'm free.
I borrow a bunch of movies and yea nobody's here so i'm kinda free.
I'm waiting for Donutz nutz to tell me how she will going thru this day.
Yea she's too long.
time is running out, probably i wont hang out.
its my free time!

And I cant stop thinking of *.
* makes me going totally crazieh!
But now I'm so crazieh lazieh!
So I can scream; yell me; yell together!
Please *, dont talk shit again w/ me, promise?
I wont duck out from you, if you arent talking shit.
Please, it hurts me.
Really hurts.

I'm starting my guitar lesson again! yay!

Thinking of you is so fvcking boring

2008-02-23T12:41:00.002+07:00

Fvck you.
You just waste my time.
And now, cant you see I meltdown like this?
Everybody knows, its not your fault.
But the situation bites me.
You dont know, hu?
Dont call me,
Dont show your face,
Dont say hi to me,
Dont make any sound.
I'll be a hypocrite in a second.
I dont wanna lie anymore.
Esp for this self.

People, amuse me.
Cheer me.
Please make me laugh.
Then burn me down.
Tear me.
Stab me.
Kill me.

I need a torture,
and killing me would be too easy.

HAPPY BIRTH-FVCKING-DAY, JIMMY SULLIVAN!

2008-02-09T10:08:00.000+07:00

K, so, this week is full by activities, and so the fvcking 9to5. I just wanna tell ya that now I join the school magazine club, seems like its a pretty amazing thing, and when I hear about "live perform interview", thats extremely kick ass.

And recently I'm so happy I could scream, Mommy and Daddy allow me to buy a new electric guitar! Yeah! There's so many things that I've been planning, and so the provises. I hope I'll find the guitar specialist as soon as possible. And I'll ask to make some QnA!

So, pray for me that I'll have a good perform on next early march. Frgt the date, but I'm sure its on march, and the audition is on next February 15th. My bandmates have decided that we'll play a couple of songs:

1. By the way- RHCP

2. Pertempuran hati- netral

3. Unholy Confession- Avenged Sevenfold

4. Kiss me- NFG

5. Leaving on the jet plane- Me 1st

6. ?

This week and next week must be fill by my 9to5. So Ti-red T.T

yeah, and happy birthday to Mr. James Owen Sullivan a.k.a The Reverend!

redtired

2008-01-27T10:59:00.000+07:00

Fvcking tired... last fri and thu i went all over the places. I did some school stuffs and yeah pretty ti-red. I made a styrofoam house last fri. The doors are dotted with cans, 1 yellow, 1 red. Then I stuck pics of shoes and duck on the walls. Next monday I'll stick the skull to clarify the logo. Cooal. I arrested in home bout at 8 pm and boom boom i stumbled and fell asleep lmfao. Thats fvcking crazeh.

I watched heroes season 2 til the 2e! yeay...almost done...

A couple of days back I debated with someone about guitar dat i plan to buy. Yea the fact he doesnt kno anything bout me,guitar,and what i've been planning. So dont try to judge whatever ya kno bout me yesterday. It was just yesterday, and yesterday is a wide thing, for me it isnt important to applied. So lemme do that by myself, and just wait to accept the end. Rite? Deal?
Yeah i guess you wont.

Nevermind. I got many tracks from my pal, he gave me the buddies such as rammstein, stonesour, comeback kid, and darkest hour. Yeah theyre pretty awesum :)

Tomorrow is a math test. Wh? Math, chem, physic, bio, wht else? make me whirl ol day, but yea honestly i want quickly pass these all, and go to college, and blend again with my real friends.

Somebody terrorizing me. It appears on my screen "you've burn it down".
O fag wanna play mess w/ me? lmfao

Lets learn deutsch with rammstein!
Save the cheerleader save the world!

I shattered

2008-01-20T11:12:00.000+07:00

Just now I shattered ;( I saw afterlife video and saw the couple (forbidden to said) dancing there. They're so sweet, and vintage. That's burn me down. Yeah burn it down. It's me that should be there. But, yeah fate is cruel.

K, I can't wait to see the baby zacky! I won't tell ya who the fug he is but he seems so adorable! A chubby cheek and cute face. I can't wait. Really really can't!

I have to tell ya something important that fell on me last thursday. But yeah I try to not recall it, so I supposed not to tell to the world. God only knows.

Anyway thanks Nira for lend me the dvds heroes season 2! I haven't seen em, sorry pal :) but i'm going to see em now. My parents are away from home so i'm kinda free! yaaay!

Pray for me that me and my band will perform on next march. We'll perform you couple of songs, one of them is by the way by RHCP. It makes me like a frusciante wannabe. Yeah I love frusciante for sure! He's my big influence since junior hi.

Mmm anyway thangs cay, you help me so much! I miss you and our mmrs in past! Till we meet again? Like in my dream?

Rrr..I already added leanna's myspace. She's sweet. But..gena? yeah, she's still his lady bug. Sorry, ladies. Sorry, red.

K, I'm listening to fat mike and the buddies now. They're kick ass! And I regret I didnt come to mxpx show. A cool punk rock show last sunday. Fuctup.

4 1/2 hours with nuts in insomnia

2008-01-13T11:11:00.000+07:00

"DOC! I'M DYING!"

yeah that's all i wanna say rite now, its kinda sucks but yea it's all fit in. Nuts once said that that song means when we're dying, we need a little of guilty pleasure to make alot of fun a while before we meet a grim reaper, and we beg it to people. Wow an extreme brompton cocktail, makes me wanna tri-e-i-e-i-e...
Okay now, i'm extremely dying. Waiting for my famiglia to bring me a hottest orange (eww i don't like it very muach but yeah this time i have to), and searching for gena's (she isnt holly, fags!) pics and i found a couple. Hmm still wondering, is gena still his lady bug? Oh, God, whoever gena valary michelle lacey or leanna, i dont try to fcking care.

So, okay, trying to recall all the comedies and tragedies i spent with nuts yesterday. Yeah i got sum of vids and they're all kick ass but yeah there just some of them are disappoint. Whereas me and nuts want so bad to see children that sing on unbound (the wild ride). AND ON DEAR GOD! That's pretty annoy me. But yeah I love how i wasn't gave up for that vids. I sat the two and joked and laughed and bored and starved out a while and patience and did some moron things and yeah 4 and half hours later we did it!

yeah now i get so many stuffs. Vids for sure.
Umm, actually now i'm dying bcos recently i often to sitting here alone and watching what happens on this screen. I studied a few of guitar lessons. And hell yeah makes my head bursting out and an overdose radiation! So, here, i'm waiting for a nostrum and I remember a part of my recently track. Doc! gimme brompton cocktail! hahaha.

Rrrr I'm pissing off at this self. Originally said that wanna study a couple of guitar lessons again for burn it down. But fact?

*ok ok ok fag I study..!*

A! frgt! My rapport! wanna kno? ahahaha I suck at try out. That's ripping me off. But okay with the other scores. Not bad.

yay! I found matt baker's myspace account!

Jealousy('s an ugly word but you dont seem 2 care)

2008-01-11T10:47:00.000+07:00

Right now I'm certainly watching a video lesson by zag and syn. OMFG they're kick ass! I just can staring at those pompous faces (actually, not really), those curved fingers, those astonishing hands, and those knotty but artistic tatts!
Zacky vengeance and Synyster Gates are dinamic duo! whoa whoa ha!

Hmm so stop being slaved, I'm praying right now with these two hands to Allah SWT. Gimme good scores! Today my raport will be alloted. Yeah my parents will be the first and second persons in sum hours l8r that watch my celebrated work, my masterpiece (wtf?). I'm sure it will be the worst one in entire of my hi school days. Bowling for soup say "hi school never ends". No, I want my hi school ends with superbly fast! Yeah than I allow Tom Delonge and fellas say to me "going away to the college". Earn money (more than $0.002 surely) than go to work, and produce something.

Grrr...

Okay, pray for me, to get a better scores than yesterday. Bleh..

WOW! forget! 2mrw i'm going to meet nuts! Yippie!

A permanent Holiday

2008-01-06T15:44:00.000+07:00

So, yeah, damn, A permanent Holiday is almost over.
This is the last day.
And 2mrw is Monday.
I hate monday anyway.
Oh yeah you know what things that i laughed about at yesterday?
Please visit UG (if you smart you do know bout this!)
hahaha and get surprise of what you see in the best and worst list bands of 2007!

Kick ass!

Oh yeah, I just already earned $0.001 today. Is it an important thing?
I earned, people! C'mon! It just a beginning!

Okay, so, I can't wait to meet Parking Disaster Area for next saturday.
I want to show them some stuffs.

And, B...
"Jeung Bana, when will we netting again?" (translate in your mother language, fag!)
"Shhhh!!"

Hahaha!

The last holiday is today! Yeayeayea!
About permanent holiday?
Hmmm tony have said that Mest's music is sucker than A permanent holiday's. O please fag, did you mean you forget about Mest? Nah!
Mest was making my junior high school days more colorful! (ahaha sound so sucks)

I was in love with Anthony John! Ahaha.

And now I see him not with Jeremy or Matt again.
Matt again?
Yeah, now not Matt lovato again, but Matt sanders a.k.a M.Shadows!
OMFG
See their myspace account and listen to their first song! (I'm forget bout the title, check it by yourself -_-" haha)
And lets surprise together with me if you are one of ton fans of mest!
Whatta? Whatta better than mest? Did you was jerking off!? Oh man...

"There's a time and place for everything...",
As I remember that song with the beautiful lyric accompanied me in my 8th grade days!
I was getting nuts with nuts in MP, watching their video, and I was like
"OMFG,B! SEE WHO'S PINK HAIR GUY PLAYING GUITAR BESIDE TONY!"
And B was like
"OMFGT, R! He's *****!"

hahaha! I love jaded anyway!

Hooray!

2008-01-04T10:07:00.000+07:00

I try my best to not use cencored words and stuffs.
Yeah hee haa though now I don't know what I should do.
The problem is I don't understand.
Yeah lemme try, because I learn from basic.
I teach myself how to do everything.
Autodidact.
And learning by doing.
Okay?

So here, yeah, I remember 2 days back in a two years back was a great day.

That was the first time I got his picture.

O thank you so much my nuts I love you I swear forever and foralways!
Hee haa and chunonk too! Thanks for your camera! Helped me so muacho!

Oh talk about chu, yesterday she told me that she met zundy and daud (as kakek ever told me the same story w/ different side), and so strait I asked her, "oh! Did you talk about lefty kid??"
And she said "yeah, zundy told a bit bout him. He told me that he just died. Dats it."
I was like OMFG.
Lefty kid..

Dear Lefty kid,
How's going on there? Watsup?
How's john lennon or elvis presley there?
Do you sleep like a log there?
Are you okay? Are you cleaning your home rite now?
Or just staring at me and watching me so fcuking glad?
Yeah I hope you doing that.
Nice to talk to ya l8r.
Take care then.

ZACKY VENGEANCE IN PROM NITE!

2008-01-01T14:42:00.000+07:00

Today is the first day of the year

2008-01-01T13:48:00.000+07:00

Welcome, creatures!
You know what? The day seems to be out of fun.
I post everyday jtlyk that i just already dumped ;( *u-kno-what+u-kno-who*
It's a quite terrible thing but yea that's okay.
Someone asked me to make a new one ;) yeah and now I'm pretty confuse about what-should-i-do-nexx with my new blog?!
A new blog, a new year.
I'm completely being desolate when thinking bout my age...gosh...whatta pathetic feeling.
But yea, life goes on, that's a truth,
Destination still cruel,
Forever punk, forever young! (hahaha that's forward backward's quote)

O-kaaay (with wolfie the foxx's accent), now, I'm recalling a lot of things that just made me weld a couple days back.
About that magafuckingzine.
What?! Why?! How could?!
Moreover, when I looked my friend's myspace account and saw that she said she bought the guitar world, revolver, or the other kind.
Astagfirullah.. (how strange I atonement.. LMAO)
Why? If I talk about, condition, once again, I couldn't, why?
Why?
It's all about the money, economy, buying and selling, income...
Fuctup!
I wish all the Hydrogen Dioxides that I whiff are GOLDS!
I wish all the leaves that I trampled down are TREASURES!
I wish all the bugs that can blown by wind in a second are DOLLARS!
I wish if I could be a rockstar someday, my title would be RETY CASH! (because I'd marry johnny LMAO)
yeah, but?
But, what?
your state's finance is zero, red.
You're just too obsessed with a high level of delusion.

Wake up, wake up, red! It's an afternoon!

*LMAO, magod...

Today is the last day of the year

2007-12-31T16:14:00.000+07:00

Hello, fag! Finally i'm here, after went thru a journey; a strain journey.
Goddamn, why must I met those fucking trucks and the other fucking damage paths?!
Yeah yeah, I mean, forget it, at least I went thru it all.

Alryt, now i'm sitting here by dad's permission of course, and watching making the critical acclaim and still amaze with zacky's voice.

Hahahaha gee...today is the last day of the year.
I hate a changeover.
Changeover year..
2008, means this age will 16.
I don't wanna be 16! I just wanna be 13-some.
Rrrrrrrrr....

And yeah still dunno wht to do, for 2mrw.
Hope 2nite I won't fall asleep then wake up in the next day and regreting much.
Like just what i've done a couple years back.
LMAO!

HAPPY NEW FUCKING YEA7XR, CREATURES!

I gotta go, leave this city!

2007-12-19T07:11:00.000+07:00

Its early in the morning, but i have to post the journal, i have to go, soon, today...

To SURABAYA!

K, fags, don't worry, i'll be back soon, not for a long time, i just come into my aunt's wedding party, then i hope i stay there in a less than a week, yeah, then i'll post all of my experiences and i'll show it to ya!

Gee, frgt, I met Parking Disaster Area yesterday, wtf it was fucking snuff. I was in a middle of craziest creatures yesterday! Took a stroll around this fucking city with Trans Jakarta, then we just revolved around, whipped around, that was fucking nuts! Yeah hell, as I was enjoyed that day.

Yuh, then I got a comment from ashila today. She asked me to take a stroll with PDDA (Parking Disaster Doki-Doki Area), maybe in about next week, to "karaokekarokoe" in Semanggi while she with ayi in classmeeting.

I'm listening to nothing for now. I suck on my left speaker. I dunno why it is unable to produce the sounds. Moreover I was very shocked yesterday, when I was listening to thrashed and scattered or wht song i frgt, I wasn't hearing zacky's guitar sounds, then i checked it, and it's true that the left one isnt function.

Yeah that's all I gotta say.
Take care. I hope you enjoy my new lay-o-o-o-ut. See ya l8r!

NEW SCHECTER MODEL!

2007-12-18T09:26:00.001+07:00

New Schecter model!

This is for Lovely Porl Thompson of The Cure!

Spesification:
CONSTRUCTION/SCALE: Set-Neck / 24.75”
BODY: Maple
NECK/FINGERBOARD: 3-pc. Mahogany/Ebony
FRETS: 22 Jumbo
INLAYS: Dots w 'X' @ 12th fret
PICKUPS: Duncan Designed HB-101
ELECTRONICS: 2-Vol/2-Tone (Tap)/3-Way switch
BRIDGE: Roller TOM w/Bigsby B-70 vibrato
BINDING: Multi-ply
TUNERS: Grover
HARDWARE: Chrome
COLOR: Kev Grey Original Tattoo Graphic
US RETAIL PRICE: $1149

My comment:

I think I love the color. Once again, it's black and white. And I love how the dying snakes and birds pose in there. Hahaha. But yeah, $1149?!?! Whatta?! If I win that i would show it off to all my friends, oh if i could, i would to all people, all creatures. Hahaha that's a fucking affluent. But yah once again porl thompson rulezzz!! I wish it could bring up the sound of 80's like the cure usually does. Hello?! When you will make new album again?! I'll be patient here, waiting for your show in jakarta, not singapore! hahaha.

For information, visit: www.schecterguitars.com

I'm going to meet Parking Disaster Area!

2007-12-18T08:59:00.000+07:00

Okay, I know, I must update this creepy blog everyday, for some importance.
Okay so, I'm so fucking happy right now, just now I clicked some option in this blogger, then I succeed! Yay, that was fucking great, finally I made it!
Yeah, you know it.

So yeah I'm going to meet and greet with Parking Disaster Area. Miss them so fucking bad. Yeah so this meetings and gatherings for this day is about to take a stroll go around jakarta. Sounds so riddiculous but yeah anyway we haven't do that together in entire life. Hahaha that's fucking silly ass.

Great. I'm currently listening to The donnas. Pretty good..

C'mon uh!

2007-12-17T06:22:00.000+07:00

Hello, it's monday morning.
Thank God it's monday and no activity for this afternoon.

Haha...yeah trying to be juicy this morning with assume this facility.
God!
This lovely computer was already installed some new program called: internet explorer 7 and God i think sometimes it is agitates my eyesight! Yeah i'm unaccostumed, you know.
But blah lemme go thru this.

Umm...long time no see hu? Haven't been posting about my piddling life stuff,hu?
Yeah I gotta tell you something.

C'mon uh I've been waiting for an e-mail from ****** since 2 days back. (I purposely cencoring, i'm afraid if that website look my blog, they would cancel the emission!)
You know it would help my daily income. I could buy a ton of stuffs that i've been wanting for so long. Yeah i want dollars, you know. That's the point!

Gee. I realize that I escape today. Haha, don't care hu.
Oh, and pray for me! Next saturday i will get my own raport. God, I don't know how it will be printed. C'mon faggots, pray for me to be succesful!
Alryt?

Mmm I'm currently listening to the faders, and it reminds me of my 9th grade days.

"Oi! You better off dead!"

Happy Birthfuckingday Zacky V!

2007-12-12T06:36:00.000+07:00

HAPPY 26th ANNIVERSARY ZACKY V!

December, 11th 1981- December, 11th 2007

If I were your friend, I would come into your party tonite, give a bunch of presents.

If I were your close fan, I would come into your house, throw a candle light.

If I were your sister, I would follow you touring, and keep my bro alive.

If I were your custom "Gynecologist" White w/ Blood Splatter S-1 Elite, I would stick with you every second.

God, If I were someone lives around Zacky V...

Z, happy birthfuckingday.

Wish you all the best.

Keep come alive.

Finally, it's done

2007-10-08T14:05:00.000+07:00

FINALLY, FAG! IT'S DONE!

Temporary holiday is coming here.
Tapi kenapa sih panas banget?
Padahal lagi puasa juga.
wow wow wow.

Tapi hal ini bisa saja jadi gila.
Byangin, ini lebaran pertama saat gw bakalan....
bakalan...
ada deh. hahaa.

Swallow suffering.

2007-09-07T19:30:00.000+07:00

What next?
Pertama.. friendster account gw ke hack.
Kedua.. komputer gw di set up ulang, so i cannot meet my computer for a while.
Ketiga.. karena komputer gw di set up ulang, otomatis friendster yang tadinya bisa kebuka secara otomatis, skrg jadi ke log out, dan faktanya gw ga bisa ngegunain fs gw lagi.
Keempat.. jaringan telpon lagi rusak. Dan bener-bener rusak.
Kelima.. People become so sucks. Banyak banget orang-orang yang benci sama gw. dan gw ga enak.
Keenam.. serial tv heroes udah abis, dan ga mungkin kan bulan puasa trans tv nayangin heroes?
Ketujuh..
what next?
what next?!?
WHAT NEXT?!?!?
I'M SAYING: WHAT NEXT?!?!?!

please God, I need a miracle.

Pissed off.

2007-07-22T09:25:00.000+07:00

Gila aja, ga terasa semuanya berlalu begitu saja.
Gw ga mau memikirkan apapun.
Tumben-tumbenan semuanya dateng secara bersamaan, tapi...
Gw bisa tenang ngadepinnya
Bukan tenang, sorry, bukan tenang, tapi tidak terfikirkan.
Well the shits was made me sick.
Where are you?
You cheated.

I am #2, not #1!

2007-07-09T08:34:00.000+07:00

Jangan biarkan aku menggantikanmu.
Cukup dengan semuanya tadi malam.
Akhirnya pun aku tertidur, kau juga kan?
Dan semalam aku tak mimpi apapun, tak ada feeling apapun.
Aku yakin, 60%=bisa menjadi 100% kalau kau kuat.
Aku tahu kau kuat!
Kau sangat kuat!
Jangan menangis, jangan menyesal.
Just tell me you won't die tonight.
And tell me that we would live together, happily.
You could see me someday, I'm so f*ckn happy with my new guitar.
I could see you someday, you just success with what you've dream before.
We are strong, totally strong.
Don't let me replace you.
Or don't let me chase the man.
People who hurt you, and don't let me curse their families.
Tell me that I do not know anything.
Tell me just like you tell to everyone.

06:00 PM
the destination...

DROOLER

2007-07-06T09:13:00.000+07:00

*Drool* bagaikan surga dunia...
Minggu ini gw makan sesuatu yang alamak:
1. Hari selasa kemaren gw makan Lasagna.
2. Tadi pagi gw baru saja makan kornet.

Terimakasih Ya Allah.

ALHAMDULILLAH YA ALLAH

2007-06-30T09:23:00.000+07:00

YA ALLAH AKU MENCINTAIMU SELAMA2NYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AKHIRNYA GW MASUK IPA!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGPDA SENENG MAMP*S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lo boleh remehin gw, tapi gw bisa buktiin ke kalian semua.
Gw gak lemah dengan impian gw yang terputus sementara.
Gw masih punya harapan lain!! LAIN!!

Doakan aku agar sukses. OKAY?!? SUKSES BUAT SEMUA!!!

Dreams

2007-06-18T07:42:00.000+07:00

Dreams.

Last night I dreamt about:

1. When I woke up in the morning, my sister outta there give me a phone, she said that granpa calling me. OMG. I was so distracted, who's another grandpa? Grandpa...i miss you so much. I was so lucky i heard your voice. The broken voices.

2. Jack is such a shit. He told me that i won't go to the IPA class for next year. He said that i would go to the IPS class. I was crying a lot. And didn't know what to do, didn't know what to say.

3. Mrs. Hilya said that we could bring t-shirts for pesantren. We could wear t-shirts in pesantren.

***

it's okay if that dreams are come true. Except the second one.

Global Warming

2007-06-13T21:11:00.000+07:00

Global warming?
Well, ga usah muluk- muluk. Ga usah basa- basi.
Kemaren senen, disela-sela pelajaran bu itu, bu bahasa indo, (well, ada perjanjian& deklarasi yang mengatakan bahwa haram memanggil nama guru dengan baik dan benar) gw-uthe-nuna-oleng-geytha-ima lagi memperdebatkan suatu topik.

Wtf. Oh sucks. Yeah i'm telling you, BUATLAH DUNIA KITA JADI SEHAT!
-Jangan buang sampah sembarangan (paling wajib)
-Minimalisir kendaraan bermotor
-Cintailah angin alami
-Jagalah kebersihan
-DIHARAMKAN MENEBANG HUTAN
-LEBIH DIHARAMKAN MERUSAK LINGKUNGAN
-Bertobatlah

(Maybe most of people who read this would say: "mental anak 42 nih." ee lo)

I'M TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW,ah...

Kalo seandainya 10 tahun lagi dunia tenggelam, apa yang bakal kita lakuin?

Mau lo lo pada belom kawin tau2 jadi manusia ikan? putri duyung????

Mau lo tinggal di pluto?? Matahari??

Mendingan dari sekarang kita antisipasi!

Cegah! Meski ga bisa ditanggulangi!!

Yang penting semua itu mulai dari diri kita sendiri!

Hmmm...let see...apa yang sudah gw lakukan?
1. MEMBUANG SAMPAH PADA TEMPATNYA. Kalo gw ngelanggar namanya gw berkepribadian ganda.
2. Pulang sekolah gw selalu jalan kaki. Meski jauh tapi bodo amat. Jalan kaki itu bak surga dunia kalo pikiran lo lagi banyak.
3.Menghasut semua orang agar peduli terhadap global warming.

Maybe that's it. Siyal sih,gw cuma bisa berbuat gitu doank. Tapi daripada gak sama sekali? betul ga?

Yah paitnya yah, kalo emang beneran dunia kerendem air dalam jangka waktu yang singkat...yah...mendingan lo semua dari sekarang TOBAT deh. Intinya jangan berbuat jahat. Well pertamanya emang susah, tapi lama-lama bisa kok. Gw juga lagi dalam proses tobat...

Kasian tuh lapisan ozone makin menipis. Kasian tuh penguin pada hijrah.
Yaelah apa susahnya sih ga naik mobil? Apa susahnya sih jalan kaki?
Jangan manja oi, pikirkan! Masa gara- gara kita semua yang kena efeknya seluruh umat sih?

Hasut orang-orang! Suruh mereka agar jadi bener!!

*Sekedar promosi*:Makanya doain gw ya biar masuk ipa. Gw pengen ngebuat suatu alat yang berguna bagi orang2. Kalau doa kalian menyertai gw, gw berjanji bakal jadi yang terbaik! Ok? Cheer :)

Siyok

2007-06-10T11:53:00.000+07:00

Ada beberapa kejadian yang membuat gw SIYOK akhir2 ini:

1. Dia ngerokok.

2. Dia (seseorang yang haram disebutkan namanya) ternyata sudah heeh (kejadian yang haram disebutkan) dengan si xx(orang yang tidak pantas dibicarakan karena derajatnya jauh banget bo ama gw)

3. Kakak gw menjadi jadi. Gw semakin bersalah

4. Hari jumat kemaren gw lihat sano :) tapi sayangnya jam stgh 5 pagi. siyok.

5. Gw siyok dengan guitar worldnya luthfi. Melihat ketampanan alexi laiho (gitarnya, i mean)

6. Gw semakin siyok karena dia(nama yang haram disebutkan)

7. Gw siyok mendengar syasa jejeritan di telpon krn pas lagi ngobrol dikagetin kakaknya. Gw siyok karena membayangkan mukanya kakaknya syasa.

SIYOK

MALES GW!

2007-06-04T17:11:00.000+07:00

WARNING!

MALES GW AMA ADENYA ****E! HEH, ASAL LO TAU YA! NAJIS BANGET GW LIAT TAMPANG LO!!! JIJIK! GW MENDING KEDUA KAKAK LO DEH KEMANA2!!! LO? JIJIK! SAMA AJA LO AMA ANAK2 YANG LAENNYA! NAJIS GW LIAT MUKA LO!!!!!!!

P*S: Buat ****... jangan marah ya... sumpah gw emosi.

Percakapan aneh antara aku dengan ayahku.

2007-06-04T16:13:00.000+07:00

Percakapan aneh antara aku dengan ayahku.

Suatu malam, menjelang ujian blok fisika yang ke3.
Aku menunggu ayahku yang kebetulan baru selesai shalat isya.

Aku: "Pak, ini..."( sambil menyodorkan LKS fisika, pertanda bahwa, "woi, ajarin gua napa."

Ayah : "Wuah... ambilkan kacamata bapak, Nak, di atas!"

Aku : "Kacamata yang mana, Pak? Kacamata Bapak kan ada banyak!"

Ayah : "Sembarang, wis..."

Kemaren gw ketemu TEAWE

2007-06-04T16:04:00.000+07:00

Once again... 2 Juni 2007 merupakan hari sakral...
GW KETEMU TEAWE LAGI!
Siyaaal!!! Dia berubah sekarang!! Hahaha... dia bawa efek warna biru, diatasnya ditaro hapenya yg warnanya biru juga.
Tasnya masih sama lho. Hha.
Jijik. Bandnya keren banget.
Ga mo tau, gw pengen teawe. SEKARANG & SELAMANYA!

Shock

2007-05-24T07:23:00.000+07:00

Pada hari itu...

Jum'at pertengahan Februari 2007, sekitar 13:00

Alam terbuka dengan teman- teman, duduk didepan pintu dan seseorang mengatakan, "Pamali duduk di depan pintu! Ntar ga dapet jodoh!". Gw tertawa,"Yaelah pamali atuh...". Padahal gw lagi cemas2nya. Siwalan, pikir gw. Siwalan, pikir gw lagi... Dia berjalan di tengah lapangan menuju satu ruangan yang gelap. Disana lagi- lagi gw nyobek kertas *this is what i hate most*. Kalkulator gw macet lagi. Asu. REBUS!!!!!eh, siwalan. Dia bilang nile gw cepe. CEPE? cepe moatamu, nyong? gw harus keluar donk? "oh iya sana kamu keluar", ujar beliau. Asu, sekali lagi! NGAPAIN GW CAPE2 DISINI? Siwalan plus asu!! REBUS!!!!!!

Kemarin sore...

Rabu, 23 Mei 2007, 16:00

Di senja sore yang disayangkan. Melihat seseorang yang panik dengan penggaris minnie mousenya yang tertinggal. "Aku jatuh lagi... sekali lagi jatuh... jatuh sekali lagi... lagi jatuh sekali...", melantunkan dengan vibra bersama orang2 termoron. Wanita muslim juga dinyanyikan. Berdebat masalah apa yang seharusnya dikerjakan. Gile lo! Dia diremehin? Mau kena kutukan 7 abad lo?!? Hahaha... sesampainya di ruangan ber AC... menyuruh orang seenaknya... kertas di kantong... dan nama gw ga dipanggil. Gw kedepan, mastiin... OMG WTF BIATCHO! "Kalo kamu CEPE ngapain kamu disini?", suaranya bagaikan malaikat (izrafil).
Oh damn yo damn yo... akhirnya gw keluar... 16:12 melihat alam sedang bermain dan melihat seseorang sedang menunggu... ada 3 GURU!

Agama dan Kimia? Dua kali gw ditipu. Shock berat. Namun gw puas.

When I try to remember my past

2007-05-13T14:58:00.000+07:00

Late Saturday Night, May 12nd 2007

When I try to remember my past

My memories.
I look back when i'm sitting here right now, try to remember, whatever,
memories that i've been done before.
I did these.

I was sitting there with my joys and so my emptiness.
Waiting for someone, to take me home.
I saw him, first, i felt nothing inside.
But then I suddenly got my regret feeling, just already!
Oh, I don't wanna remember this part, I just feel nothing's gonna be alryt.

Then I was standing in 4th floor, in front of my lovely class, and looking behind.
I saw him, there, was playing with his fellas and I was freaking out.
My friend reached me up, said, "hey, why don't cha try this one?"
I just laughed off.
Wondering how to make him to be mine.
I never give up, but yes I did never try.
It's unclear about what were i did, and i don't know why i felt certainly comfort.

Also I remember this part.
I was singing and kicking out all my girls outta there.
Laughing together and making some jokes to break up the rules.
A different words, a different life, and so a different philosophy.
We were so jerk and i did believe that we are rocks!
And also we were fought about little things,
which are don't matter for me right now.
Then I realize, a fun journey between my black and my white.
I love this part, I FUCKING LOVE THIS PART.
What could i do?
Regret-some won't ease the feeling of lonely,
because i"m still having them for after!

Yes, I grew up fast and day by day was thru with -maybe- nothing's feels ryt
But right now i just want to back to those memories again.
I started to look for my identified, with endless sacrifice
A broken heart
The days are nightmare, but i know i'm too hyperbola.
I just learned my lesson, how to kick those fucking wounds.
I learned to rocking out my world.
Then I found how to fix these all.
Hahaha, i learned my music and making them to be my pride.
I'm proud, absolutely!
I was didn't care about everything and everybody who try to stop me.
I found these all, I was found all mine.

So thank God
I ever felt about these things before.
Blending in my stories and i just can sigh with these all.

Tell me

2007-05-11T15:40:00.000+07:00

Good Afternoon, Ladies and Gentlemen! Everybody! Every little things!

Tell me and allow me to know, HOW TO DOWNLOAD SONGS *free and fast*. esp:

1. Stray cats

2. Johnny cash

3. The runaways

4. The damned

please, tell me.!

yesterday i met teawe

2007-04-29T19:55:00.000+07:00

KMAREN GW KETEMU TEAWE!! anjrit skrg jadi tambah ganteng!!!!!!!! tambah tinggi!!!!! gile men.. kmrn gw doki doki antara ada teawe dan ada anjing item disebelah gw!!! hhaaa whatta cool day. GW MAU PAMER NIH SAMA JENG TONNY. syal. wookie keren bgt sih. cuih cuih

April, 16th 2007; 5:25 PM

2007-04-20T16:09:00.000+07:00

GOD, tell me why, WHY,

I can't forget him?

Bagaimana caranya

agar bisa melupakan masa lalu?

Apakah aku harus mengganti kepalaku?

Haruskah aku celupkan otakku, lalu benturkan

semua partikelnya hingga apa yang aku lihat berubah hingga akhir hayatku?

Apakah, iya?

Haruskah ku cari penggantinya?
Oh, tidak, tidak, tidak.

Katakan, TIDAK, wahai orang yang beriman!

Aku TIDAK mau terjerumus dalam perasaan seperti ini

untuk yang ke dua kalinya.

Aku tidak mau hatikumenjadi korban lagi.

Aku ingin ini yang terakhir.

AKU INGIN KEBEBASAN!

Whoaaaaaaaa sampai kapan aku dapat melupakannya?!?

Aku ingin TERIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK!!!!

WOI! AKU INGIN MASA LALUKU TERLUPAKAN!!!

Dan hilang.. lenyap..

Lalu tumbuhlah hari yang baru..

Berganti terus, sampai suatu hari

Kalau aku mendapati kejadian ini lagi..

Mati rasalah hatiku.

Hampa dan tak ada luka sedikitpun.

Dan aku hanya bisa tertawa.

Sampai kapan?Kapan, oh kapan?

Terlalu lelah.

Seakan- akan baru sedetik yang lalu ku merasakan ini semua.
Aku hanya ingin tertidur pulas.

Namun hapuskan rasa tentangnya.

FRAU SHIT, I KNOW, THAT WAS "DER TEXT" RITE? FUCK YOU!

2007-02-26T16:33:00.000+07:00

Hey frau. Youre such a shit. hhh. who cares bout you, bout me too,frau? fuck you!

hha.. tadi dikelas gw udah kaya hampir nangis tau gak.. hhh.. Masa besok masuk sih? ee nih ada sumini lagi. fuck.

ARGGGH GW BENCI YUDHA! LUDAH LO ITU NAJIS JIS JIS JIS YUDH!!!! EE LO YUDH! GW BENCI AMA LO! BALIKIN PIN GW YUDH! KOTAK LO YUDH! GW TUSUK LO YUDH!!! hhhh..

aargh yudha maap bgt td gw kesel bgt sama lo. Tau knp?
1. Ludah lo itu yudh, gw jd makhluk najis deh skrg.!
2. Buku gw lecek yudh! ee lo! sana sana!!
3. Gara2 ikan lo, tempat duduk gw jadi bau amis, lo ga tau sesuatu ya? EE LO! GW KAN BENCI BANGET BAU AMIS! hhhh au deh yudh.

Au ah yudh, besok gw marah sama lo (lha, direncanain gtu?!?) hehhe ga kok yudh.. youre the best.
Rety: YUDHA! POKOKNYA GW GA SUKA SAMA LO!
Yudha: yeeeeeh siapa juga yg suka sama lo????

Yudh, rasanya pengen nusuk rahang lo tau ga sih pake pensil mekanik gw. Ee ah yudh, najiiiiiisssss

Hha.. udah crita aja deh.

Kmaren.. gw nonton TRAFO. Ee apanya yang seru? meski sponsor gede, tetep aja sekolah sehat mah gak mentingin non akademik! ee ah sekolah gw. Trus. YAY! gw ketemu OPHE MY LIL BRO ONE!!

ophe.. love you phe.. ophe.. love you phe.. hh yg bikin irinya ya, si ophe nonton muse.. nyegat mobilnya matthew.. ee tu orang, bikin gw tambah iri.. iri.. oh ya oh ya trus gw ophe ma nuna ktemu di McDnya PUSAT GAUL CILILITAN (gaul bo? ee ah, fried shit!) hha trus akhirnya gw ke forto deh. Hh.. sampe disana.. wuess.. ktmu jack, ndut, edho, dkk deh. Dan bru gw sadari, bodynya adam tuh bagus banget.. yah.. hhee.. sayang si faza menyia2kannya.. padahal diliat2 adam ganteng juga sih. Eh si faza malah milihnya rancid! Nehi lah, gw mending adam! hehehe.. oh ya trus juga si pocky.. baru kusadari. bodynya keren banget. Ganteng juga.. uhh.. hha

oh ya lupa.. Nah udah sampe di trafo.. eits.. ktmu si rubenbenben.. hhe.. Ruben berkata, "weits ret! mo denger lagu trash metal??" Sambil mengulurkan tanganya. Toast. hhe, Eh gw denger2 ternyata lagunya si three tigers. hha.. "Oh iya ben, gw jadi pengen headbang!" hha.. dan ternyata.. bodohnya.. hari sabtu tuh HRMF MANGGUNG! ruben ruben banci ah lo ben! tante girang lo ben! ga ngasi tau gw! hha si luthfi juga tu ah dasar "U" (even i dunno what it means) lo lo pada! hhh.. katanya sih.. HRMF (as u kno, HARD ROCKING MOTHER FUCKER, klo mau link, ada di sebelah) ngebawain lagu letter to euis (hha ben, thats good! youre bastard ben!) sama lagu2nya speak up. Oh lets get punk rockin yall! hhe tapi yang bikin bete, Throw down the rose.. gw kira bawain metal (wkt itu eky pernah bilang mo bawain lamb of god) eh sucky sucky yummy.. ternyata bawain finch (fried sh**!!) sama MCR (not a fried, but fired sh**!!) ah ee tu kan kasian si eky, anak metal kok mainnya emo? yah, screamo sih, tapi kan suara lo mantep abis, ky, mending bawa lamb of god deh..

hha

puncaknya..

JR2B! ah ee AH! gw pas pulang lagi! hhh ee rebus!!! Meski main lagu2 yg totally bukan jazz, tapi audi aja ampe bilang :"GILE RET KREN BGT!" hhh whew gw aja ampe nendang meja tuh gara2 itu. Wah, katanya sih yg nyanyi reza, anak ipa 1, bukan ryan.. ya baguslah.. apa cakepnya sih ryan? najis org ky gtu modal tampang doank! hhh.. heheh.. oh ya, katanya perkusinya kren juga lo! hhh gw kan jadi iri.. knp ga nonton..

malah main ujan2an sama nuna.. mana payungnya terbang.. hhhe.. kocak ga tuh? yep, payungnya terbang! hhhe..

Ah ee ah ee ah ee ah pokoknya ee.. hhmm.. gw lagi cemburu nih sama seseorang.. SARA BRADLEY! MENGAPA KAU RBUT TONY KU? KAN AKU SUKA SAMA DIA SEJAK 1 SMP! KAMU MAIN REBUT AJA SAR! EE GILING AH SAR! KAN TONY ITU PUNYAKU! hhh..

E'E O'OT!

2007-02-17T15:48:00.000+07:00

Hello. Ah, ga pake bacot ah, yg penting kalian harus tau, hari ini, detik ini juga, gw..:

1. Internetan pake vox yg diumpetin bokap diatas lemari *I FEEL SO CHARM AND SMART!* haha, dad.. gotcha!

2. Gw ga ke pashkash, alhasil minta tolong nuna deh. NUNA, LOVE YOU KID! I AM SO SORRY! maaf na ngerepotin lo na.. sorry na..

3. Tadi siang gw makan mi goreng pake telor. oh, hott abis.

4. Masih terpaku dengan nothing hill.

5. Kangen cay sangat.

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Oh ya, maaf udah jarang ol, jarang ke forum, jarang ngeblog. Hidup gw, biasa lah.. monoton..

oh ya, tau ga? sejak gw pulang ama luthfi ndut dan tentunya bareng si nanas, hidup gw makin sial (lho? nyambung ya?) masa, pas rabu 2 minggu yg lalu, duit gw ilang 20rb dollar? hhha? wah, gara2 si luthfi ama nanas ngomongin something like "U" gtu deh. Mana gw ga tau artinya lagi.. aaargh!

oh ya lagi, mau tau? Hidup gw monoton banget sejak cay ama ophe ninggalin gw. Liat aja deh, awalnya power ranger.. trus ngilang atu jadi teletubbies.. trus skrg jadi power puff girls deh. Monoton sumpah! gw tanpa mereka ga bisa bercanda! hidup itu itu aja. Ampe bosen sen sen gw.. hahaha tapi, sayang sekali, merugilah si ophe karena dia tidak sempat melihatku maju ke depan main gitar! hahaha.. yang beruntung hanyalah nuna, tasya, dian, audi, uthe, dan funf zehn (yah, beberapa.. klo ada yg dengerin) haha.

Oh ya lagi dan lagi, si audi.. hoho thanks buat ngajarin keyboardnya di! hehehehe. thanks udah mau minjemin alkitab (hello guys, i swear fo this, gw ga ada maksud apa2 buat baca alkitab. Gw gak murtad. Gw hanya pengen baca dan menelaah aja. Dan itupun untuk kebenaran. I'm sorry for this), ntr kapan2 gw bawa pulang ok? haha. haha. Oh ya, lupa, si audi ini nih kmaren bilang gini sama gw, "red. Nonton java jazz ga?". Gw pun jawab "gak. Ga punya duit". Dia pun berkata "hmm gw bayarin deh red.". Gw berkata lagi "Gratis nih? klo gratis gw mau!!". Dia bilang lagi "bukan gratis! tapi gw bayarin!". Gw pun menolak, "gak deh di, klo gratis gw mau, tp klo di bayarin gw ga mau.". Bodohnya diriku. Ah.. tapi ga enak jg sih sama audi.. hehehe.. piss bro! n gw yakin 100%, AUDI PASTI NONTON JAVA JAZZ! ah ee tuh monster! bikin gw iri aja!

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Hmmph. Hmmph. Hahaha.. cerita lucu datang dari ima dan kawan kawan. Hehehe she thinks inggit died! hahahaha akhrinya sekelas ngecengin mulu, sampe2 pak mario bross bawa si ima ke uks, dikira kesurupan! wow, mantep tuh! haha.

Oh ya, bwt k thogel, jangan deket2 gw lagi! huh! gw muak! haha-piss lah bro ndak kok kak, maap kak, maap kak. Gampang kok kak, gw tinggal kabur aja.

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CONGRATULATION to: JR2B and HARD ROCKING MOTHER FUCKER!!!! hihaaaa.. kalian lulus audisi trafo bukan? lets rockin out!!

-JR2B: cieh audi, ayo, tunjukkan skillmu! haha makan tuh jazz! hahaha. Oh ya salam buat kakak jaket orange, bilangin, dia keren banget.!

-HRMF: ruben+luthfi+mario. Mari bergembira. AKU DUKUNG KALIAN!

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Me and them, Met.

2007-01-19T16:27:00.000+07:00

*the stample said : "M & G" and now it gone!*

*Me and my meet and greet ticket*

*they got a platinum!*

*they made their mistake after the young and the hopeless bridge!*

Friday, January 19th 2007, 8:15 AM

Hey guys
I just feel happy and dunno wutt to do, today
I touched him last night! I hugged him! I took a photograph with him!

Last night I felt tired and weak

But I didn't care, I didn't mind

I met them forawhile

They are same and awesome

But I'm not obsessed with them

I'm not a freak

I just love their lifestyles in their past, and how they made they are

Yes, I listen to their songs, I have their albums

I know their life, And their A to Z

But they're not my fave one

I'm not all bout them

I'm not their fan

But don't you kno?

I hugged benji so long! but fact,it just a minute!

Joel smiled at me, he said, don't worry!

I touched benji's face and he laughed!

Fuck that rules! I don't care!

It's not a fake

I hate some posers like them, but I don't even mind

They make their music not as good as my fave

But hell yeah they're making me stronger as today

They tell me how to survive when nobody here for myself

They tell me how to holding on

They tell their life which same like my life

I have loving them before

And I don't care what people say bout them

I just know them, not love them!

Slipped away

2007-01-16T17:40:00.000+07:00

I miss you.. I miss you so bad

I don't forget you, oh it so sad

Hope you can hear me

Cos I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away

Was the day I found it wont be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you

Goodbye on the hand

I wish that i could see you again

I know that I can't

I hope you hear me

cos i remember it clearly

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Nih lagu khusus bwt seseorang. Yang pait bgt klo gw inget. PAIT gila. PAIT! ANJROT! hati gw sesak. haha. Moga2 dia nyadar n prasaannya sama ky gw. (ngarep!)

Hari pertama masuk skolah

2007-01-16T17:01:00.000+07:00

Hello hello.. tadi hari pertama masuk skul and pretty sucks too.. hahaha..

ophe pindah.. gw pulang sendirian.. biasanya gw+ophe bercanda bareng ampe paling ribut sndr di angkot.. trus suka ngeceng2in guru.. ngeceng2in org.. makan di McD.. jalan2.. whoa.. ophe.. gw pengen lo ksini lagi! dikangenin tuh ma kaka kcil! hahahaha..

trus ada murid baru.. pindahan dari 61.. namanya ima.. yah, skilas nyblin, tapi tampangnya diliat2 biasa aja tuh.. hahaha..

trus.. trus.. gw melakukan rutinitas yg monoton lagi dan lagi.. kurang ajar, rasanya pengen libur trus.. whoa!

Kosong adalah isi, Isi adalah kosong

2007-01-11T19:14:00.000+07:00

Ada bbrp kejadian hari ini.

1. Pagi2 gw dibangunin nyokap.. katanya bokap manggil gw.. eh, trnyata d suruh buka e-mail bangsat yg berhubungan dgn marketiva yang biadap itu. hah. males gw.

2. Jam 9an gw mandi dan sesuai tujuan mau ke BCA galaxi (tadinya mo ditawarin ke kemang, cuma kurang efektif aja) daftarin rekening baru, krn gw udah ada duit yg lumayan banyak dari asuransi plus ngegabungin duit yg dulu plus emang udh ada kartu pelajar baru. oke. abis gw mandi, gw tau2 ditelfon seseorang berognum x. "ret, jadi ngeband? si A (nama disamarkan) udah ngebet bgt! ayo cptn! parah abis!." padahal gw tau studionya jauh banget (di jakarta). N gw pikir2 bole juga tuh ngeband. Akhirnya gw berangkat ke galaxi sekalian ke MM buat janjian sama si ognum x itu.

3. Jam 11an, gw menuju ke MM. Eh, disana gw ketemu sama si X plus si A. Ngebetein abis. Anjrot tuh makhluk. Haha.. krn gw bete, akhrinya gw memutuskan ke rumah kakek. Yah..itung2 deket lah. N gw pengennya kakek gw ajak ke studionya. Katanya sih di deket WS, yah.. akhirnya sktr jam 2an gw ksana; dalam keadaan gw ga tau tempatnya yg mana dan si kedua ognum ga ngasi petunjuk yg jelas!

4. Jamn stgh 3an gw ama kakek turun di sumber arta. Trus jalan menuju perbatasan antara jakarta dan jawa barat (momen paling menegangkan.cihuy), trus nanya ama org2, n jadilah gw jalan kaki dari sumber arta ke duren sawit. Mampus dah. Jauhnya nauzubileh. Sama aja kaya dr skul gw ke PGC. mampus dah gw ama kakek, udah belang2. Sial.

5. Pas nyampe d 252, tau2 gw ketemu si X ama si A. Tanpa rasa bersalah mrk lgsg ngajak gw ngeband. Kurang ajar. Ya udah gw ngeband. Meski ga berskil2 amat, tapi harmonisasinya tinggi. Gile men.. anjrot.. dan doakan biar bisa rekaman, cos demo udah jadi, makanya gw masuk dalam format yg terakhir.

6. Pulang2 ada sesuatu yg menegangkan. Petama, si ophe pindah ke 28/14/28. anjrot rasanya gw udah ky setengan otak yg ada dipala gw. Rasanya pengen jejerit! Hua.. akhirnya mood gw ga enak. Kedua byk bgt sms yg masuk hr ini. Sekitar 15 lah. Blom lagi miscal2nya. Ada dr bbrp org: ierwan, daus (ah sucks bgt), ophe, dan yg bbrp malah ga jelas bgt. Anjrot. Ketiga gw kelupaan sesuatu. ANJROT GW KEHILANGAN 2 EPISODE KERA SAKTI! FU*K!!! gile aja! skrg lagi seru2nya! ahhhhh pokoknya besok ga boleh ketinggalan!!! najis! najis! BAYANGIN DONK! anjrot binti wahidun!!!!! gile aje aje gile lo! gw bete abis hari ini. Tapi merangkan seneng (dikit) sih.. haha

Sekian berita dr hari ini. Ah,shit

BERITA BERITA POKOKNYA BERITA!

2007-01-10T17:37:00.000+07:00

for ~BERITA! BERITA! BERITA PENTING (AMAT SANGAT) SEKALI!~

1. Garis bawahin nih. Gw dapet tiket konser gratisnya GC di hard rock cafe tgl 18!!! WHOAAAAA >.< meet&greet, ttd gratis, sama foto bareng!!! WHOA! Trus dpt juga album perdananya, eksklusif! AKU NGGAK TAU HARUS NGAPAIN LAGI! HIAAAAAA... hahaha.. planning gw? ngasi benji indomie sedus.. hahaha.. benji cinta indomie.. doakan aku ya!

2. Tadi malem gw mimpi teawe.. yesh yesh.. haha..
Critanya gini nih.. kan (ga tau gmn kejadiannya) gw tau2 ada di suatu tempat. Si kakek lagi duduk berhadp2an sama teawe, sdgkn gw berhadp2an sama uyo dkk. Nah, trus gw ngobrol2 ma uyo, padahal gw ngupingin teawe.. ^^ nah, trus tau2 gw dipanggil ma kakek. "ret, sini!". ya udah, gw langsung ke tmpt kakek. Eh, teawe tanpa basa basi ngomong, "eh, lo suka music jadul2 juga ya?". Trus gw jawab, "iya..". Eh dy nanya, "Lg suka dgr apa lo?". Gw jawab, "chuck berry, elvis, sama the sonics." Sumpah, gw ga boong, cakep abis abis bis bisssss ga boong gw. Cakep total! total! tp dy ngomongnya biasa aja, ga cool.. hmm.. tp gpp sih. Nah, trus besoknya ga tau gimana trus tau2 gw ama teawe ke alaz trus gandengan tangan *sumpah, jantung gw srasa copot. Klo kjadian bnrn ya, gw mungkin udah ga tau hrs gmn. Membara gw..haha* sama teawe, trus jalan. Kykny sih dalam posisi lagi jadian *HUA, SUMPAH KLO BENERAN KEJADIAN YA, GW LANGSUNG TOBAT SAAT ITU JUGA!*. Eh, tau2 byk yg tau klo gw ama teawe ada hubungan khusus. Trus di ceng2in. Teawenya biasa aja lagi. Eh, parahnya yah, katanya si uyo cmburu.. hahaha.. ada2 aja.. nah, sekian. TAPI PARAH! SUMPAH! GW AMPE SEKARANG MASI KEBAYANG2 MUKANYA! ANJROT TUH MAKHLUK! NAJIS SUMPAH!

intinya: aku senang hari ini..